[lovebattle]

I am going through a situation right now that is deeply hurting me on the inside. I am dealing with relationship issues. My bf and i have been together 5 years now but due to him being in the military he hasnt been home in 2 years. He has been to visit and i have been to visit him. Now he's almost home for good once he's released from MedHold. But recently he cant home (Friday) for 2 week. He had family issues to deal with this weekend so i didnt expect to spend time with him. But the next weekend (this weekend) he had plans for a trip with him friends. He will be gone 5 days straight out of town with his friends and i will be here again alone and with out him. I'm soo tired of being alone and he dont understand. I get very emotional and depressed when i cant spend time with him when he's home. Well if anything not mandatory is standing in the way; like this trip. I feel he rather be with his friends then with me; the one who has been living 2 years waiting on his return. I cant cope with this feeling i get from the situation. Last night i went to talk to him about how i feel about this but he just laugh at me and tell me i am asking for too much. He tells me mean things and make me feel like he doesnt care about me. But i know he loves me, i know he wants to be with me but not how i need him to. I want to let him go but it is killing me to even think about doing such a thing, then i want to stay and work this out. I just want the pain to stop. I admit i get a bit out of hand when i PMS (which is now) and i take meds for it but i havent been able to afford my meds and i have no control of my reactions. My actions only makes matters worst. I have seeked help online and will soon contact a psychologist for addt'l help but until then i need some kind of help and support from others who understand how i feel. I feel like i'm alone in this and i am the only one who feels this way. PLEASE HELP!

[Direction]

First Welcome to PC and you are not alone.

My first advice is always a candid assertive sit down conversation...sounds like that you've done that.

Go or Stay is a toughy...did you continue to be assertive about how his laughing makes you feel? This situation you describe may say something about how he views your relationship? Has it always been this way or is it something new? What was it like before he left for his military service?

If you find yourself saying to yourself it really has been this way pretty much the whole time...you may want to look at that carefully...

[Wants2Fly]

Hello LoveBattle -- Welcome to PC. So glad you are getting help from a T. I am sure this will help you to look at the situation productively.

So sorry you are feeling so badly right now.

[dorsey555]

Hi lovebattle,
I think it takes a lot of courage to reach out the way you did. I can't tell you much about how to deal with a relationship, i'm pretty challenged in that area. But i will encourage you to be good to yourself and to take care of yourself . Honor your feelings and know that you are worth being treated with respect and kindness. i hope that you are ok.