[black-roses]

I am pissed off basically because my mother gives more of a **** about what others think then her own daughters emotional mental wellbeing. Has she ever considered my frustration and powerlessness was the driving force in me creating a cam girl account in the first place. The worst part was having so ignorant minded ***** basically slut shame her daughter just because she is closed minded like I am not already pissed off enough that centrelink lays me back now she had to pressure me to delete an account and lose $90 dollars to be honest. That money wasn't even worth all those countless hours on there to get peanuts your basically exposing yourself for peanuts. It is so unfair that women are treated this way paid less and then feel pressured to do this unfair work for perverts around the world. I admit I made mistakes but I give less ****s about my face and body being on the internet then I care about feeling like I am to useless to get a proper job. No mum couldn't even try and see why her daughter was doing this but has to judge her for it and I have decided I have had enough of her **** she is a negative relationship and I now discard my mother as she is a ****** person who makes people feel guilty for their mistakes. She is too busy giving a **** about what people think and her own self image to give a **** that her daughter feels to useless to have a normal job will I am done with those slut shaming *****es!!! This is over you can go **** yourself you selfish self serving piece of ****!!! I was always better then you that was why you had to critize me for all those years well now **** you!!!

[Ceridwen18]

Hi black roses. I just noticed you're an Aussie like me. I'm so sorry that you have so much anger atm. Do you feel better for venting?
Some people care a great deal what others think, some of us don't. Is that your mum's way of coping with things she doesn't understand? Is there worry about you underlying this that she can't express? Some people are uncomfortable with emotions they don't know what to do with, and express themselves in strange ways. I had screaming arguments with my mum in my teens and all she cared about was that the neighbours would hear!
I was wondering if you live with your mum? Do you have to see her if you choose not to?
I hope life gets better for you very soon. xx

[divine1966]

I am sorry you are struggling but I really don't see how women are forced to become web cam girls or are forced to sell themselves to perverts. Especially since it's not even paid much. It's not nice of her to shame you but I don't know too many mothers who would be excited their daughter are web cam girls, it doesn't make one close minded.

Now are you seeking help in finding employment and dealing with your anger?

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[black-roses]

Originally Posted by Ceridwen18

Hi black roses. I just noticed you're an Aussie like me. I'm so sorry that you have so much anger atm. Do you feel better for venting?
Some people care a great deal what others think, some of us don't. Is that your mum's way of coping with things she doesn't understand? Is there worry about you underlying this that she can't express? Some people are uncomfortable with emotions they don't know what to do with, and express themselves in strange ways. I had screaming arguments with my mum in my teens and all she cared about was that the neighbours would hear!
I was wondering if you live with your mum? Do you have to see her if you choose not to?
I hope life gets better for you very soon. xx

Yeah, my mother shames me but deep down I think she cares deeply and worries that I will regret what I do because she thinks I care a lot about what people think. So I think she is trying to remind me to be careful because she says that when people hurt me I tend to take it out on her so I understand her point of view. I have also been thinking that her anger would be related to the fact that she feels I am selling myself short by being a camgirl and after I deleted my account I understand her point of view. The fact that I would think that my self worth would rely on creeps tipping is very bad and I am concerned that I would have that point of view to self worth in the first place...

[black-roses]

Originally Posted by divine1966

I am sorry you are struggling but I really don't see how women are forced to become web cam girls or are forced to sell themselves to perverts. Especially since it's not even paid much. It's not nice of her to shame you but I don't know too many mothers who would be excited their daughter are web cam girls, it doesn't make one close minded.

Now are you seeking help in finding employment and dealing with your anger?

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No point now I am leaving for portugal soon so I am hoping that maybe family in portugal could help me get employment.

[Ceridwen18]

I'm glad you seem to be feeling calmer and understand your mum loves you. I hope you stay in touch on PC when you move. Hugs