<font color="#000088">I don't understand how my family can be the way they are. They are so judgemental towards others,outside the family,except for me and one of my little brothers! Were both just considered outsiders to them,because we won't do what they expect of us,and agree with everything they do.And be a part of their religion. They are filled with so much hatred,and greed that it just makes me wonder how I could really be related to them. Their hatred is aimed at me and my little brother,and their greed is just in general. They only love those in the family that will be a part of their religion,and go along with their plans in their greed. And it just drives me nuts,when they complain to me,about one family member oweing another money,and then when they didn't pay them back. Now that family member wants him to die,because of it! Over money! That is ridiculous,you don't wish death on someone just because they didn't pay you back some money! But that's all my family seems to care about.And helping eachother that are in their religion get away with crimes just as bad,or worse than murder! I just don't understand how they can be so cruel,and ridiculously greedy! Their completely insane, I swear! </font>

[SeptemberMorn]

Just thank God that you are not like them and you and your little brother put distance between you and them.

You can find a better "family" in your friends.

[UCLAFan]

Sorry to hear you are having family issues.Just to let ya know u are not alone.I think most of my depression is due to family issues.

<font color="#000088">That's why my home is California! Because they live here in Utah. And why I'm so desperate to get back to California.I always say I want to get back to the beach,and that's part of it,because I love the beach,and my friends down there. But the main reason, is to get away from my toxic family. I have a feeling my little brother is already gone. I got a call at 3:30 in the morning that sounded like my little brother from a cell phone with a (562) area code,but I thought it was a wrong number call,because of the area code and because of the call being made at 3:30AM to me. So I called the number back during the day,and the voicemail greeting sounded exactly like my little brothers voice. So I left a message for him to call back if it was him,during the day,so I'd know that he was okay! I don't know where that area code is,but he's the brother that my other brother wants to die,because of not paying him back.When he really didn't have the money to pay him back at the time he wanted the money,but if my brother would have given him time he could have come up with it. But he just decided one day he wanted it now,and he didn't have it that day,so he freaked out on him. I wouldn't be surprized if he ran, that brother can get dangerous when he's mad.Does anyone know where the (562) area code is? I'm worried about my little brother! And my Dad told me when I was younger that he did witness my birth,so I really am related to them!Grrrr..</font>

[nothemama8]

Justice, the Area Code is for California, areas are
Long Beach, Norwalk, Downey, Whittier, and Lakewood
Angie

[asylumgardens]

Justice.. I don't understand what makes people like that. Like September said, at least you and your little brother have distanced yourself. I hope you can get back to California soon.

[Maven]

I can't tell you what makes most people tick, heheh. I can tell you it angers me that people wish death on people over the most petty or unfair things. I've heard so many people wish death on someone because they didn't like their opinion...we're entitled to free speech here in America, and people will still threaten or wish death on you if they don't like what you have to say, even if it's not something all that important. But even when it is, we have the freedom to say it, and people want to kill others over it. People actually have been shot, cut, beaten and killed over things they should have been free to express or do. Many shootings are over someone feeling "disrespected," and it wasn't always disrespect at all!

So, yeah, wishing death over owing money is crazy. It's hard to have judgmental and inconsistent parents.

<font color="#000088">My Dad was nothing like the others,and maybe that's where I get my concience from. You may know he had passed away in October of 2005, maybe you didn't. But he is the one that taught me about what love really is, and was the most generous man I know. My brothers took advantage of him so many times,it really upset me. And when he passed away My Mom (his ex-wife)and my older brothers, the greedy one's took almost all of his life insurance money and kept it for themselves,ignored his "Will",since one of my older brothers was his power of attorney, he fired the real lawyer,and just took over. The older family members gave us younger kids a very small amount, not even close to what my Dad wanted us to have,or I would have been able to move back to California.And they kept about $80,000.00 to do whatever they wanted with. My Mom has a new car,2 other older brothers got new cars,and I just found out yesterday that my other older brother just bought a new truck! My Mom and sister ( my only sister) went on a Carribean Cruise together to! So us younger ones were left out with less than $4,500.00,while the older one's are out splurging,and then one of them goes off when one of them borrows some and doesn't pay him back!GREEDX10! That phone call,when I answered, the guy said his name was Steve also,well the brother that abused me when I was young is named Steve,and that area of California is on his Trucking Route! So now he's calling me 8 days after my birthday at 3:30AM to bother me possibly! He raped me on my 8th B-day during the night! It's no wonder the voice sounded familiar like my brother,but possibly the wrong brother.Maybe it really was Steve,if so I'm glad I said he had the wrong number. But then I called back leaving the message about if it was my other brother than to call back. Oh,well,atleast it saved me the possible harrassment from Steve! God, my family is such a mess!</font>

[Maven]

It's terrible how some people act.

<font color="#000088">Tell me about it! My little brother just stopped by about an hour ago, and was worried about coming in my house because I smoke, when he's a drug addict! He smokes to, he just doesn't want his new wife to know about it,so he didn't want the smell on him at first. So he called his wife and told her he came by to visit, so it would give him an excuse to smell like smoke when he got home, then he came in just for about 5-10 minutes. I didn't smoke the entire time he was here. But now he can smoke on his way home,and tell his wife it was me. Ofcourse I watched him like a hawk while he was in here. I always do, if he ever stops by, which isn't that often, because I won't give him my pain medicine. That bothers him, he thinks that since I'm his sister I should share. But I don't agree with sharing that kind of stuff, that's a felony, family or not! A Judge isn't going to look at it as "That was nice of you to share with your brother!"
This wasn't the same brother I'm worried about. I still haven't heard from him!</font>

[Maven]

You're absolutely right, sharing drugs is illegal. My mom and her friends think I'm wrong, that if you have the same prescription, it's ok.

Tell him you'll share Tic Tacs with him, but not medication.

Hiding stuff from his new wife? That doesn't bode well for his marriage.

<font color="#000088">I know huh? When he got arrested for Possession of Methamphetamines,and paraphanelia in me and my Dad's apartment. He blamed me for it for so long, just because when the police came to the door to arrest him on 2 warrants,I didn't yell COPS at the top of my lungs! For one thing,he was only there for 1 night, he was told not to bring any drugs or paraphanelia on the property. So I didn't know he had anything on him,and even if I had known, I was not about to go to jail with him, because of it,or get rug burns on my face. My other little brother warned him that he heard the neighbors outside talking,and that the cops were being called on him,and he told him to get out of there. Then the other brother bailed before the cops arrived. But I guess my brother was just so high he just didn't realize what was going on. When I told him he was wanted at the door, he was in the bathroom with the door wide open,and he just said "send him back",so I tried to give him a second warning,and said just come to the door. He just yelled at me" just send him back",so I said okay,go ahaid,and I just went outside. I didn't want to see what was going to happen next.My Dad told me when they left with him, that he had drugs and para.on him when they went back there.And his wife barely forgave him for that,and they weren't even married yet.That was before the heroine,she doesn't know about that,I don't think the marriage will last at the rate he's going,with hiding stuff from her!</font>

<font color="#000088">My brother,and his wife, just got married 2 months ago,almost 3! And he thinks by getting her a house, that will make her happy, and getting her gifts. But her family, and she is pretty religious in the Mormon Church! And he smokes,drinks,and uses, like their not going to pick up on that after time. Their suspicious by nature! Gimme a break! Her parents were kindof weary about the marriage in the first place, because of my brothers drug history! She really should have listened to them. Anyone that marries into my family, is really in for a treat! More of a terror of a family to deal with! </font>

[DocClyde]

(((Justice)))

Regardless of how your family is, at least you are a good, kind-hearted person...focus on that

My best,

Clyde

<font color="#000088">(((((Clyde))))) Thanks! It does make me feel better knowing that I'm not like them. It just hurts watching them destroy themselves, and take a lot of their frustrations out on me. They look at me as lesser of a person, simply because of the fact that I'm Mentally Ill, and because I am not a member of their Religion. So they basically treat me like trash. After awhile it pretty much makes you feel like trash. That's why it's so important for me to stay away from them as much as possible!

They really bring me down!</font>