Unlucky to be single.not so sure

I once like a lot of people here thought i was unlucky to be single i felt depressed and lonely well i finally had my chance and i just asked someone out from my day program and he said yes big mistake he is so annoying i don't know if it's the autism or adhd but hell poke me like 40 times whenever im near him he repeats himself. And when i talk to him about serious stuff hes never real with me ive decided to get out of my day program to put distance between us so maybe itll click that were over. I do care about him im just not in love thought about buying him a birthday gift for his birthday this month before i leave but being with someone i learned is not all its cracked up to be its more about finding someone who will take time out of there day to be with you and tend to your needs me and my boyfriend haven't had much time together either alone cause we both dont drive and im a bit newer to the bus system so id probably get lost though he wants to take me places.which is why my heart is a bit twisted i hate him i love him i cant decided.