I am older now and lost my mom long ago. Only recently did I realize that the sometimes dysfunctional relationship I had with my mom has had an enormous impact on the relationship with my husband and children. When I was hurt by my mom or refused to comply with the things she wanted me to do or say--I would totally withdraw from her. My withdrawal was hurtful for both of us. I coped with it by burying my feelings. I wonder if not acknowledging these feelings is one of the reasons that I have had suicide ideation, on and off, most of my life. Thankfully, I am currently feeling hopeful and want to live!

[gayleggg]

I'm so glad to hear you are feeling hopeful. Yes, our previous relationships can play a big part in life as we grow older. It's sometimes hard to uncover the "rules" we've lived by but when we do we open our lives to better days.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm glad you feel hopeful! Yes, relationships with our parents can be very damaging You sound like a strong person. Hope things will improve from both you and your family

[Ena khan]

People like you inspire me!

[Fuzzybear]