[UCLAFan]

Damn i still like this one jerk.We were friends a little bit.Got in a arugement early last year on My Space.I have mentioned him here several times.I see him every now and then.Since he plays in one of my favorite local bands.For a year i did not go see the band he plays in.Because i did not want to see him.But in a way he was not a friend.I did most of the communicating.So i got mad and got back at him.By badmouthing him and his band on a bulletin on My Space.Well back in May i started going to the bands gig's again.Mostly out of boredoom and missing seeing the band play including him.Well the band played a show i went to last night.The person i went with wanted to talk to him after the show.She tried to convince me to stay inside and stand next to her while she talked to him.I could not handle it and went outside.When i told my friend i'd see her later when this guy responded to her.He gave me a funny look as i was leaving.At times in the past i have lost sleep over this guy.I even get nosey and visit his My Space page.I have no idea what has gotten into me. Is it i'm going nuts,lonely or the Bi Polar in me?

[Direction]

I remember the story...

Nut's ... i don't think so...I feel the loneliness ... not what you feel...but I know it hurts...

Bipolar...could be...its part of you...its part of me...it would be difficult to separate it from what and who you are...

Just know you are not the only one out there that goes back to something familiar to feel not so alone...

[meander]

((((UCLA))))

you're not nuts! But you do sound lonely, I'm sorry maybe go to a few more baseball games and other gigs (which I know you like doing) and just distract yourself for a while? I think keeping away from him is probably the best thing to do for now while you feel like this, but don't be too hard on yourself

[UCLAFan]

Thanks u 2.I sure am lonely.No real family love.Been used by so called friends etc.

[meander]

((((UCLA)))) you always have us at PC