So...I was raised to be seen and not heard...

Now, as an adult, I feel like I offend people all of the time.

I walk around apologizing for my very being on this earth...for taking up space better used by someone else.

i don't know how to BE anymore.

That's weird as my exs said in court that he wished I didn't exist. actually that my problem was because I exist. how strange of a point of view. I didn't hurt me because I knew what a @@@@ he is. we went to court for custody and I knew I would win because all he had to do was show himslf and his ways and anybody could see what he is. I won.

(((((( Sophie's )))))))

I'm sorry you feel this way.

I know the feeling well , I had such self loathing it was horrible and I felt if I spoke everyone would hate me " more"

I dug myself out of that hole finally , I have fallen back into it a few times , it did get easier to " recover " each time.

What does you're T think ?

You do not come off as offensive to me but...we all have different chemistry in certain situations with certain people so...maybe that is just our chemistry. I actually think that people who offend people for the right reasons are pretty cool....

And your closed threads were some of the most popular. Being the squeaky wheel can be fun if you can stand the heat....I can never handle making waves for very long; I eventually cave in! For example, I feel like I had better watch out what I post; someone in my life might not be so impressed, disappointed, find my feelings a bit ridiculous, etc.

SM!

I find the way you "Be" to be pretty awesome.



Remember this bit?

"You are a part of the Universe
No less than the Seas and the Stars
You have a Right
To Be Here."
--- The Desiderata

xo

Chyia, stumbling toward enlightenment (I hope)

I can relate to this.

I feel like I exist to repulse people. When I go stand in a crowd a bubble of space tends to form and people in their conversations move further and further away.

My mom used to tell me I walk like an Indian all the time growing up because she could never sense when I was near by or hear me walk around the house. I've had more than a few people blurt out that I should be a spy for the same reason.

I know how it feels