[Artchic528]

Okay, so a while back, a guy messaged me on OKCupid. I guess I was in a bad mindset because I didn't respond, or maybe I just didn't get the message. For some reason the system didn't show me his message until just tonight and when I looked at his profile, it seemed really great.

Anyways, I just wanted to say this because I'm nervous. What if the conversation leads to a date, and what if said date ends and he isn't impressed and I wind up looking again?

[Artchic528]

We are still talking, and he wants to meet me.

[Artchic528]

Now I have a date with him!!!

[BlueEyedMama]

I've been out of the dating scene for over twenty years so I don't have any advice but I wanted to say that I hope that things go well and that you two have a nice time.

[seesaw]

Good for you, Art. Try not to worry about all those "what ifs." Just relax and go with the flow.

Seesaw

[Crazy Hitch]

Go for it and good luck

[MickeyCheeky]

Just try it! Don't think about it and be yourself. I know it's not easy, but give it a try.

[danh19]

a least you know you gave it a go

[Erebos]

Nothing very helpful to suggest other than the usual, take it easy , keep it light, nothing too in-depth about personal stuff.
Most of all have fun, and enjoy your date.

[Artchic528]

We have plans on Wednesday evening. He's on disability, but has his own house and whatnot. I don't expect to be treated to a 4 course meal.

[HelgaBee]

I am sure that it is better to feel sorry after then before. You have to give yourself a chance!

[Moogieotter]

Boom! You go girl!

[Trippin2.0]

Awesomeness

[Artchic528]

Well, I got back from the date not too long ago and I think it went well. We didn't do anything to convoluted or complicated, just a stroll around Target. Then we sat down in the little café inside for a bite to eat. He paid for my soda and pizza. Then we walked around some more and he waited outside with me while we waited for my mother to pick me up. He even stayed to say hello to her when she drove up.

We talked about a lot of stuff. Mostly what we wanted out of the relationship, our expectations, a bit about our pasts, and found out we have a surprisingly large amount in common. He even used to watch Bob Ross's "The Joy of Painting" when he was in Kindergarten, same as me.

It all seems good, and my mom says he seems nice enough. It's almost like it's too good to be true. Is there such a thing?

[Artchic528]

I forgot to add.....we may have done this a couple of times.

[divine1966]

Wonderful! Let us know when is the second date. 💗💗💗👏🏻👏🏻👍🏻👍🏻

[Moogieotter]

So precious!

[Artchic528]

I was hesitant at first, I guess because of my past, but he seems to take everything in stride. He even calls me pet names now. We both agreed to do things right and not rush anything. However, I think my pattern for falling hard has happened again. Every day when we don't text, I get this ache in my chest just thinking about him, and when we text it goes all a flutter. Like its ready to burst from my chest.

I am trying my hardest to keep one foot grounded, so I don't fall as hard if it doesn't work out, but it's just feels so easy to let go and let this feeling engulf me completely. Keeping grounded is extremely hard.

My mind has been prone to wandering and indulging in fantasies that leave me aching inside to fulfill, but I keep telling myself to keep focused and totally lose it and rush things along too quickly.

There is this lighter than air feeling I have inside me, and a shred of me is cynical about it and waiting for what it feels is the inevitable let down and crash back to reality. It's just so hard to not be like this. I've been burned too many times to count.

I don't know what to think anymore.

[Moogieotter]

Less thinking, more feeling!

I'm not good with the touchy feely stuff but I am just popping in to say I hope things continue to go well for you.

You have come a long way since we first stared chatting here over a year and a half ago on PC and I am proud. Hopefully I helped you get to where you are now at least somewhat

Feel free to keep me updated on Skype. I am not all that good at remembering to message people so sorry about being so quiet haha

[Artchic528]

Thanks Darkness. I definitely will.

So, I feel like I'm losing my mind. My body is craving his touch, the feel of his hands, his mouth, his everything. Its not just a carnal craving, something one does just for release, but what I want goes beyond that. I want to be close to him, to feel him on me, to feel him in me. I want to entwine myself with him and have our bodies, or very souls become one. At least, for a time.

I don't know, maybe it's just been a while and the cravings my body and soul feel are over riding my senses and even my sensibilities a bit too much.

It's just...you know the feeling that, even though you've just met, you've known that person all your life? Like you can't even begin to imagine how life was without them? How your chest aches for them when your apart?

I mean, my very hand aches for his hand to be in it. My lips ache for his to kiss me there. I could say other things, but I feel they are a bit too X-Rated for this particular section.

Now, I know it's only been a little over a week since we started talking, but damn, it just feels right.

[Artchic528]

Am I going crazy or is it something else?

I don't think you're going crazy.

Although I can't relate with what you're feeling because I have never felt any kind of connection or romantic interest towards another human, I can use logic to go out on a whim and make an educated guess to why you might be feeling the way you're feeling:

Perhaps you have been craving intimacy with somebody for a long time now and now that you finally have it, you crave more? Similar to how if you go without eating for a few days and somebody gives you a delicious meal (lets say a pizza) and you devour it but it tastes much better to you since you haven't eaten anything else prior for a few days.

That would be my guess but I am honestly not that good with the whole intimacy thing since I've never had a stable relationship in my life and I don't really have a current desire for one.

Still though since I am still online I felt obligated to at least try to help

[Artchic528]

Thanks Darkness. You're a real friend.

Awesome!!!