Little brother ew trigger

Me and my brother have always gotten along but for the last couple days hed been really rude and only wanting to talk to his friend.it kind of pissed me off.i guess two days his friend wanted to commit suicide.i eventually left him alone i did even though i truly believe its a choice that shouldnt be taken from you.
Anyway today i anyway hes acting all ****** yesterday cause i wanted to show him something. And he couldve looked and paused his stupid game to see instead hes like kinda busy.and im like why dont you want to see it and hes like cause your annoying me.and it just goes on so i started to push the laptop down and he sinks his arm into my flesh were my hand is healing from self harm.well apparently not anymore.i call my mom and he says he doesn't like people in his personal space.i told her hes been acting like a jerk for two days now. They talk some more then in the living room some more.he eventually comes back and we both apologize.he just says the apartment is really small and he needs his space.i say like hamsters we both laugh.he later on watches my video i made and we back to being how we once were loving brother and sister.my hand still hurts due to injury of blisters but my cat attacked me to earlier and caused the other to burst so im as mad at him as i am at the cat not very much.besides in this situation i was definitely in emotional and rational mind no wise mind was used.

I'm glad you and your brother are back on good terms.

First off, people in families or any relationship, for that matter don't get along perfectly and perpetually so. There is always conflict and that is normal.

You mention that he wants to talk to his friend and sort of minimize the fact that his friend wanted to commit suicide as if this is an unimportant fact. You have overlooked the fact that this is something that can be very devastating and jarring to hear from someone you care about. I assume it's one of his good friends and thus, it seems to be very likely a reason he was wanting to give his friend more attention. Try to think from the perspective of how he sees things and/or feels without taking personally his actions and behaviors toward you. Back up a bit and thin try to understand, try to be sympathetic to his situation.

This part concerns me quite a bit. YOU wanted him to look at something, and he didn't want to. Regardless of his reasoning, your forcefulness was very controlling and you really did cross a boundary by getting physical and pushing his laptop down. Ask people to do what you'd like them to and leave them with the final decision. Whether you like it or not you have NO RIGHT to force them or be aggressive with them if they don't do what you want. Likely he wanted his own personal time and you were intruding.

I'm glad you made up but please do think on the things I've said here.

What do you think might help you use wise mind next time?

I don't see any rational mind described in your interactions with your brother... It's all emotional IMO.

You were emotionally charged and thus behaved the way you did because if you had been rational, you would have taken the time to think at least one or two things thru. Like his friend being suicidal, and how that possibly affected him (and then maybe even try to reach out to him in case he needed you) or becoming aggressive and forcing his laptop shut when he didn't want to give you the attention you sought.

It's good that you're attempting to identify your different mind states, but seems you need some more practice, keep at it, it does get easier with time and practice.

Your brother is an individual and saying you think he should interact with you when you please and that is an option/choice that "shouldn't be taken from you" is not very considerate. I know in my family if we want space we say so, and if we don't want to do something together we say so. It is a matter of respect. Of course if that family member was showing concerning signs of depression, etc. We'd politely try to talk to them.. but if he doesn't want to talk for a few days just give him space to sort things out. Anyway you sound rather young so it's to be expected that something like this may be upsetting to you.