Broken Heart and Still Married....

Hi,

I haven't posted in a while I guess. I was supposed to get divorced a few months back, but I decided against it. I want to try with my hubs, and I want to go as far as we can before I can't go any further. Sadly, it's been rocky ever since. He is far away from me now (visits in September) and is barely ever available to Skype or talk to. He rushes me off of skype when we talk usually, and he is rarely if ever on time. In fact, I think he's only on time after a time when he's stood me up completely. I don't know how he expects us to have a good visit when he shows up, if he's always too busy for me now, and I've been through long distance before, so I know I'm not being unreasonable. He gets high or drinks and passes out or forgets or just plain doesn't bother much of the time. I don't know how to keep this going and I'm getting fed up again. There is nothing I can do. I can't make him be more attentive or show up on time. It's like he has no respect or concept of courtesy anymore with me. I don't want to lose him, but I feel like he's already left me....

Thanks for reading, I really just needed to vent somewhere.

Marilyn

I'm sorry to hear that you're having to go through this

What changed your mind about the divorce?

I'm sorry as well about what you're going through. Should you reevaluate your relationship with your husband considering what is going on? It seems it would cause more stress and less healing the way it's going now. Best wishes.