[VernonJenkins]

I upset a friend and I'm worried that they won't talk to me again. I don't know what I said/did that hurt them, so I asked but there's been no response from them. It's almost been 24 hours and I'm very stressed about this. I'm afraid that I'm going to lose them, but until I get a response I'm going to keep checking my messages. I don't want to give up on them because I care so much. They were the biggest help to me when I was going through the roughest period in my life and I appreciate that so much. I feel awful and I just want them to be okay and forgive me.

I don't know what to do without this person. They make me happier than anyone or anything else and I'm very scared. Is it possible that I can meet someone else like them at some point in the future? Yes, but to me a friend is not replaceable. Unless I hear back from them, they'll always be in the back of my mind. I'll always wonder and worry about them, because I feel a very deep bond with them. They changed my life in a way that I can never forget and all I want is for them to be happy. I never meant to hurt them.

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you are feeling so uncertain. If your friend is upset with you, they may need a day or two to get over it. It sounds like you are good friends to each other so I doubt you lost the friendship. Give it a little bit of time and get in contact with them again via phone or in person and give them a heart felt apology. Try not to worry. I really think it will work out. Sending big hugs.

[VernonJenkins]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I'm sorry you are feeling so uncertain. If your friend is upset with you, they may need a day or two to get over it. It sounds like you are good friends to each other so I doubt you lost the friendship. Give it a little bit of time and get in contact with them again via phone or in person and give them a heart felt apology. Try not to worry. I really think it will work out. Sending big hugs.

Thank you, Jennifer.

I'm wondering if she (my friend) thinks I was coming onto her. I'm a very affectionate person and I express that openly, and I may have been excessive in her eyes.

Maybe she thinks I'm too clingy... Maybe I've made her uncomfortable. I just wish that she would tell me so that I could get some closure on the issue. I didn't sleep at all last night.

I guess I am too clingy... She's one of the few people I talk to on a regular basis and I've come to consider her my best friend, despite never actually meeting her. We only talk online. I've told her that and she seemed fine with it, but maybe she's just been feeling sorry for me... I don't want that. I don't want her to only talk to me because she pities me... I've asked her about that before and she's said that she talks to me because she enjoys it, but I don't know... I guess this paragraph right here demonstrates how insecure I am. I'm just trying to think of how I possibly could have upset her this much and my mind is going all over the place... I can't help it. I'm worried that I'm going to be abandoned because it's happened before. I end up smothering people and it makes them want to leave... I have no problem toning it down to a comfortable level for her though. I just wish she would talk to me instead of running away, because I care and I want to fix this.

I'll do whatever it takes.

I think online friendships can become intense quickly, and people often feel like they can share easily, but the flip side is people can walk away easily too, and it's easy to misread things. I hope your friend does get in touch again, but maybe a good idea to be more cautious online and keep deeper emotional investment for face to face.

[VernonJenkins]

Originally Posted by prefabsprout

I think online friendships can become intense quickly, and people often feel like they can share easily, but the flip side is people can walk away easily too, and it's easy to misread things. I hope your friend does get in touch again, but maybe a good idea to be more cautious online and keep deeper emotional investment for face to face.

People walk away from me no matter what... Online, face to face... It doesn't make a difference. People always leave me and they always hurt me... And I always hurt them... I'm DONE! I'm making a vow to myself now... NEVER again will I allow this to happen! I'm NEVER getting this close to ANYONE EVER again! NO ONE will EVER hurt me like this again!

Before I met this person, I was closed off... I was bitter, angry, resentful and vindictive... I put my trust in this person... They helped me up when I was at my lowest point... They showed me God and I converted... I was happy... I thought they cared about me, and now they're shutting me out and treating me as if I mean nothing to them... I can't do this again... I WON'T go through this again! I feel ruined... I feel broken... I want to hurt myself and I want to die!

I'm ugly! I'm stupid! I'm a good for nothing piece of **** and no one would blink an eye if I died right now! No one cares about me! I have no family... I have no friends... All I have is pain! I want it to be over... I don't want to hurt anymore! I don't want to hurt others anymore! I'm better off dead in the ****ing dirt!

Why did I have to get molested? Why did my mom have to abuse me when all I wanted to do was make her happy? Why was I bullied by the other kids in school? Why can't people just love me? That's all I want!

I wish God would just take me away right now... I want to go home! This world is too scary and painful for me... Just picture a little kid crying on the ground, curled up in a ball while being abused... THAT'S me! I'm still that little boy who just wants people to stop hurting him and love him! Underneath all the anger, underneath all the hatred... that's who I am!

I am sorry that you are feeling so bad right now, I hope that there is someone you can talk to about these feelings - a therapist maybe. It sounds like you have gone through a lot of trauma in life.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm sorry to hear you're struggling so much. Please, don't beat yourself up.. accidents can happen.

[Fuzzybear]

[Turtle_Rider]

Sorry for you to feel this way