Afraid of love

God. You should definitely paint or draw these. The metaphors are so pure.

Dreams can be so ****ing cruel.

They're trying to help, aren't they? Process the information. Digest it.

But yeah, cruel.

The worst one I had when broken-hearted over a man; I was locked into a metal harness that was strapped to the front of his chest... I had to go around wherever he went, hanging there in front of him... the harness was of my own making... it was love that kept me there... he could do anything he wanted and I couldn't get away because of the love.

It's so crap.

Now, i see him around sometimes and feel nothing!

I don't feel anything around my ex either, but there's still some anger and massive distrust. Last couple of times my thoughts were like "I really wish she'd just shut up. Oh, I'll just ignore her until she goes away." Then she gets up and leaves, not the room, but the building entirely, like a mile away!

You do sound quite far along, if you're reacting like that.

Sometimes

Sometimes is better than no times