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Old Oct 16, 2017, 04:33 PM
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I’m not sure if this post is relationship, sexual, emotions, personality place or what.

I’m feeling GOOD! And I’m embarrassed to admit, it’s because my h and I had sex.

I wish I understood what is really at play here: this is the strangest cycle of abuse or something unnamed.

Right now, I feel like the depression has lifted. I feel fine and functional. I am just cherishing this feeling.

I feel loving toward him and thankful we are still together.

It’s miraculous this happens. It’s happened before, too.

As good as I feel now, I feel ten times worse when things get bad.

I think this is codependent relationship then maybe...

I’m just reporting that I am mentally and emotionally feeling 100% different!

I’m not sure what to make of it, and I am humbled and perplexed.
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Old Oct 16, 2017, 05:11 PM
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Musta been more than just sex,it must have been really good sex!
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Old Oct 16, 2017, 05:27 PM
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Love is the drug
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Old Oct 16, 2017, 05:48 PM
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Endorphines! It's like going for a run
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Old Oct 17, 2017, 04:43 AM
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Enjoy the high! One of the reasons I am still married is that I am hooked.

The Things We Do For Love

Too many broken hearts have fallen in the river
Too many lonely souls have drifted out to sea
You lay your bets and then you pay the price
The things we do for love, the things we do for love
Communication is the problem to the answer
You've got her number and your hand is on the phone
The weather's turned and all the lines are down
The things we do for love, the things we do for love
Like walking in the rain and the snow
When there's nowhere to go
And you're feelin' like a part of you is dying
And you're looking for the answer in her eyes
You think you're gonna break up
Then she says she wants to make up
Ooh you made me love you
Ooh you've got a way
Ooh you had me crawling up the wall
Like walking in the rain and the snow
When there's nowhere to go
And you're feelin' like a part of you is dying
And you're looking for the answer in her eyes
You think you're gonna break up
Then she says she wants to make up
Ooh you made me love you
Ooh you've got a way
Ooh you had me crawling up the wall
A compromise would surely help the situation
Agree to disagree but disagree to part
When after all it's just a compromise of
The things we do for love, the things we do for love
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Old Oct 17, 2017, 06:08 AM
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LMAO guys!

This whole thing, this cycle with me having PTSD meltdowns, revolves around getting laid.

I have been describing it to doctors and to everyone who will listen. No one could come up with a diagnosis or a solution.

Yes, countless songs have been written about it, so it must be a thing!

Remember in the old days, they said the woman had “hysteria”? I’m mortified to say that’s what it is.

But, aside from the release, there’s a whole cycle of him neglecting me and ‘not turning me on’, then I get depressed and angry, then meltdown, then I finally initiate the sex, then I feel better, then repeat.
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Old Oct 17, 2017, 06:12 AM
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It is a humbling and humiliating experience.

The simple truth is HE doesn’t change. He doesn’t turn me on, doesn’t know how, has no ‘throw down’. (Only sometimes he does). This part is still confusing to me.

Is it ME who needs to be emotionally beaten before I can muster up the gumption to initiate the sex?
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Old Oct 17, 2017, 06:14 AM
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Musta been more than just sex,it must have been really good sex!
Yes, it is really good sex. That must have something to do with this whole cycle. The pay off is the really good sex, which comes from my lead.
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Old Oct 17, 2017, 06:16 AM
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Love is the drug
So true! I’m hooked on this like it’s crack! (Well it is a crack, of sorts, lol)
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Old Oct 17, 2017, 06:17 AM
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Endorphines! It's like going for a run
Absolutely! It’s that sense of well being that kicks in.
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Old Oct 17, 2017, 06:18 AM
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My friend, who doesn’t even know the extent I post here, calls me Carrie Bradshaw from Sex and the City.

Yikes, I am Sex and the World on PC!
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Old Oct 17, 2017, 07:43 AM
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Yikes, I am Sex and the World on PC!
Yes that is what I first noticed about your postings during the summer of 2016!
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Old Oct 17, 2017, 09:03 AM
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Just a thought...maybe you could skip the emotional beat down and go straight for the sex?
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Old Oct 17, 2017, 03:48 PM
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Just a thought...maybe you could skip the emotional beat down and go straight for the sex?
Definitely! Something else needs to get me going.

I might not fully understand the root of the problem, but I can stop the toxicity.

What have I been beating myself for???
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