[fijiisland]

Still treat me like crap. I get yelled at if I drop a pin on the ground. I walk on eggshells all day long. I am stuck living in same house as them and no money to move out. I am in debt and pay no rent! My life sucks! I have no one to count on or help.

The only times I feel motivated to do anything is when they leave the house (rare). I actually want to clean and think about making my life better. As soon as I hear them or see their faces I just want to get back under the covers and die!

My only hope is for their death. I will finally be able to live and start my life

[possum220]

Rather than waiting for their death, which may or may not be a long time in coming, maybe getting out of the house each day might give you some relief?

Free ways to get away--long walks, bike rides, volunteer for a good cause and hang out at your public library whenever it is open. Many libraries offer free classes, interesting groups that meet (for example--Toastmasters) and computer access.....

[Crazy Hitch]

Agreed. You need to actively find ways to physically distance yourself during the day from them otherwise they're going to drive you nuts.

[pegasus]

Number one thing for you to do is to focus on moving out. So, start looking for jobs, apply for everything, give yourself purpose in knowing that you will eventually move out. Staying there is not good for your mental health. Work on finding a job.

[Skeezyks]