[MajorGiles99]

So it's been a couple of weeks and my mind is easing on my cheating X-GF. So yesterday she sends me a text, oh I found your medical card in my wallet. So replied fairly quick and tell her to toss it out. She responds with Why? I tell her I have another. No big deal, except I don't want to hear from her.

I hear another text message come in, but there is no message.

The next day I see it and she ask how am I doing? WTF. Why would she care?, I tell her I'll live, She says further that, she's sorry it didn't work out for us, but she still cares.... I did not even bother to reply. But it certainly upset me, I was just getting use to the idea and she wounds me again.

What to do??????

Just venting.... I know I could never trust her again, but the sad part is that if she came knocking on my door which will never happen) I'd let her back in.....

heart broken, idiot am I!!!!

[ShadowGX]

Can you get an app or something to block her texts? She may or may not be trying to make you feel better (or even herself if she's feeling guilty), but it's hindering your healing so she needs to be out of your life completely. Please don't let her contact you anymore.

[MajorGiles99]

Originally Posted by ShadowGX

Please don't let her contact you anymore.

I complete deleted my old facebook account and opened a new one, and purposely blocker her on that account. I did cancel my new number and got a new one, but my old old number is still on google voice, I still need it and I don't think she remembers that number, before I returned her phone, that I repaired I deleted my contact info and deleted our old text.

But when I changed my number I had a release of emotion, crying, as I feel really like **** over her and our failed relationship. I gave up so much to try and make us work only to be cheated on. I simply gave too much of myself to her and now I am hurt beyond measure.

[lady411]

Be strong, you deserve better!

[ShadowGX]

I wish I knew what to say to help you more, all I can say is I've been hurt a lot too and can sympathize so I do know it's not something you can just magically get over. It will take you time, so please be patient with yourself. Years later I'm still effected by what hurt me the most, and I hate that he has that sort of power over me still. I've read your other posts and didn't know how to respond then so didn't, but based on them you seem like you're trying to learn from this and that's good. You didn't force her to cheat, she could have just ended it or been more upfront with you if she felt you were neglecting her. Unfortunately, it leaves you being the one hurt. All you can do now is get through this and not let her have that control over your life anymore.

[Crazy Hitch]

You're not an idiot! You've been through a rough time and when she makes contact its like opening old wounds.

You were right not to reply to the last message.

Hang in there!

[downandlonely]

I'm sorry she reached out to you. It sounds like she is just trying to feel better about yourself. It sucks now, but it will get better in time. Cutting off all contact is the right way to go.

[mote.of.soul]

I may be wrong MajorGiles99, but don't let her creep back into your life, brother. Tell her to go away, she's a cheater. Very sorry you're hurting but time will mend your heart don't you worry.

[MajorGiles99]

Putting it out there helps to hear from other, many thanks. The logical side of my head is straight and I know I need to listen to it more so now than ever.

My emotional side is reeking havoc in the brain stem.... As I am older now, I am very surprised how much I hurt when logically I know this is probably the best outcome for me in the long term.

I would have walked down the isle for this woman, this is why I am beating myself up so much. Whew I dodged a bullet there..

[ShadowGX]

"I dodged a bullet there.."

Damn straight! That's the perfect way to sum it up. Make that your mantra.

[MajorGiles99]

And tonight I am full of self doubt and beating my self up. I'm on midnight's and when it is slow, My mind races over the fights, the immaturity and the things shes done. But yet, I can;t help but still miss this girl and I know it is best she is gone. Right now i hate myself and I hate her for what she's done. I can't win... or it;s how I fell.