[MtnTime2896]

He doesn't want anything to do with me, at least not how I'd want it. Yet, he's almost all I care to think about. Hearts don't break even, I hate that song but **** me if it isn't right. He's getting better and moving on while I'm stuck ruminating about the whole situation.

I'd still kill for him, I'd die for him.... I'd do anything. I still love him so ****ing much. But how could anyone really love me? I mean, I'm disgusting looking, I'm a mental health nightmare and I can't support my own damn self. I know I'm the reason we couldn't work out. I know I'm the spark that ignited the flame, the flame that burned five ****ing years to the ground. I wish my love could disappear like his did. I wish I just didn't care.

I can certainly relate to this, but I dont have good advice. Broken hearts take time. They take tears and laughter. Remembering and forgetting.

You are not perfect. No one is. That doesnt make you unworthy of being loved. I destroyed my share of relationships and then I found someone who wouldn't give up. If it didnt work, you're either not the right match or it's not the right time, but I believe things always work out the way they are supposed to.

Big hugs.

[ShadowGX]

I can relate as well. I'm so sorry you're experiencing such pain. v.v It's so hard to let people go when we feel so strongly for them.

[Bill3]

[Fuzzybear]

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm sorry you're suffering.