I am really not

I am really not a horrible person
I have trust issues
I’m a messed up empath
An HSP
Not a horrible person

If someone said they “love you at Christmas”

Would you think this person cared about you?

I wish I knew the “right” things to say

People mostly didn’t like me on pc (long ago) because I was so “quiet”

Or maybe most did like me. Yes, they did

But why does it matter so much to me...
Why does it matter being blamed and excluded for being me

Why does it matter if someone’s boyfriend irl is cruel to me
I don’t matter

I try to be true and AS IS
But I’m a “failure”

I’d been hurt too many times and I didn’t want to upset anyone with any words

But quiet or not I’m just Wrong

.

There was nothing wrong with being quiet and listening "Fuzzy".

Fuzzy I have a question: I do not understand exactly what an empath is or what they do. I googled 'what is an empath' and this is what the 1st result was :

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em·path /ˈempaTH/ noun (chiefly in science fiction) a person with the paranormal ability to apprehend the mental or emotional state of another individual.

Is that the real definition? I wasn't under the impression that empath was considered sci-fi but am I wrong?

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Originally Posted by Fuzzybear I am really not a horrible person I have trust issues I’m a messed up empath An HSP Not a horrible person

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People mostly didn’t like me on pc (long ago) because I was so “quiet” Or maybe most did like me. Yes, they did

YES.....we ALL did or at least ALL those I knew did.....you have ALWAYS been a wonderful & caring member we always liked A LOT!!!!

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If someone said they “love you at Christmas” Would you think this person cared about you?

Some people are very free with using the term "love" honestly I think those some people don't even know what the term means & definitely don't know there are emotions that are a part of the word.....not just a word to be thrown around lightly. If actions do not match what a person says then they most likely never meant it in the first place.....just a personal experience observation

Well apparently"I Love You at Christmas" is a kids book about a stuffed animal looking on with sweet adoration as their owner follies through holiday preparation.

I'm thinking being told this was a sweet gesture of adoration?

Thanks Eskie

I hadn’t heard of the book

I think the person in question wasn’t meaning it that way though

Fuzzy, You always have been shy at times about expressing all or your hurt feelings but never shy about giving all sorts of supportive messages. At times the messages were short but sometimes short (or less talkative) is exactly what people need. We just want to vent, be understood, understand ourselves, that kind of thing. Thanks for being so caring and supportive.

I am glad you are expressing more about what is bothering you and your feelings. Holding them in can really make us mentally ill (at least that is a bit of what went wrong with me for a while.) When can take time to get our feelings out there, it helps up process and eventually put our role in our life with our family in better perspective.

All your posting is giving me a good feeling about you being able to move on from your hurtful childhood to some degree. You will be in my prayers as we celebrate the Spring Full Moon, Easter, Passover! Those Easter eggs we found as a kid (did you?) and hid for children celebrate new life! And things happen when there is a full moon. I have high hopes for you!

Thank you my friend, hugs to you

I looked it up, since I can be prone to questioning double entendre that is common in some spheres. Even if they didn't, it was cool to discover a kids book that, I hadn't heard of before. Such an odd expression if not that.

I love discovering new books, music etc that I haven’t heard of before.

I agree, it was an odd expression, as it wasn’t connected to the book, especially considering the source

A'yuh...