Validation

So I met a cute boy the other day while volunteering to take photos for a kick boxing tournament, and I ended up messaging him after the fights were over. He told me he was having a bonfire and I told him I needed something to do so he told me where to meet him and it was very very exciting. When we got back to his house nobody had come over so it was just us. We don’t know each other well and I’m very awkward but we managed to have some good conversations. We didn’t hook up, in fact we barely even touched. He didn’t make a move on me which I thought was respectful. In my head I thought, man this could be the one. I’m silly. The next day I impulsively asked him if he wanted to hangout again. I ended up staying over, but this time we kissed. I initiated it both times. He still never made a move on me which was fine but it made me think that he wasn’t interested. I think my mistake was asking to hangout again. I have such trouble waiting, and ever since I met him I have been thinking about how badly I wish he would contact me first asking to hangout. I wondered if he was sore from the fight because he expected he would be sore the next day, and he replied with one or two word answers, not making an effort to move the conversation forward. I know I can’t control him, but it’s hard to move past the feeling of not being wanted. On top of that, I lost my cat and my ex a few weeks ago and all I need is a friend. I thought he would be interested in me like he seemed to be at first, but now I feel like I’ve made all the wrong moves including staying over two nights in a row. I hate feeling like I can’t even control myself, being unable to just let things be the way they are. I feel like everyone else is able to wait for people to come to them first but I am not like that. I crave a relationship that just blossoms from the start but is that even real???? They say that love comes when it is unexpected, but I wasn’t even looking for love when I saw him. It just triggered me to be compulsive. How do I remind myself to not do that next time I see a sexy *** guy? Especially one that leads me on like he wants to get to know me. Thanks!

Hello Luckystar: I believe this was your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central. I'm sorry I don't think your dilemma is one I can offer anything on personally. However here are links to 6 articles, from PC's archives, that talk about the idea of finding one's soulmate. Perhaps there is something in these articles that can be of some help:

What Is A Soul-Mate?

How to Make a Soul Mate Relationship

8 Ways to Find Yourself Before Looking for Your Soulmate

Soul Mates: Do They Really Exist?

Soulmates and Unconditional Love

https://psychcentral.com/blog/stop-l...-life-partner/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.