[youOme]

I feel I can't control myself......I think deep down I resent my husband and where our lives have taken us......there's something about me, in me, that wants to destroy "us" and what we have built together.....I don't understand why I'm so angry with him. I'm alone and nobody can know my embedded hatred....

[Perna]

So, are you going to work on the feeling out of control, the feeling of resentment, or on changing directions?

I like the sound of that phrase, "embedded hatred" (but not the concept :-) Have you written a poem or anything about it, explored it further?

Embedded hatred steals my spark;
Diverts it to another's mark.
This could be written without rhyming
Just another's mark;
Controlled timing.

Then the positive stanza about how you're going to block the steal. . .all without rhyming :-)

[curley]

If you resent him there must be a reason. And if it is a life you have built together then arent both of you to blame. You need to be truthful with yourself as to why you resent him. Then talk to him about your feelings. If you love each other you need to work this out.