So for the most part this doesn't sound that bad and I think it was my adult self choice because I was getting over a 5 year relationship. However the loniliness of being single is starting to sink in and get to me. Not least the intimacy, but things like touch. I go weeks and sometimes months with hugging people let alone sex. I feel like my body misses it a great deal. The year and a half wouldn't worry be, but I have always found it hard to start relationships. My last one was my first and it lasted 5 years, but now I am 30 and meeting people seems harder as everyone is coupled of. I am not great at socialising and meeting people. I mean I am friendly but I will never go to events on my own and mingle. Dating apps are fine, but they never come to anything and I am not the person people swipe right for. I have tried to get comfortable on my own. For the most part I have enjoyed it, but I just want company and intimacy and to settle down.

This together with my poor attachment just leaves me feeling i'll be alone and that is it.

[bpcyclist]

I am sorry you are struggling. But you are still quite young. I didn't meet my second and at the time, seemingly much better, partner until I was 40. She turned out to be more mentally ill than me and refused treatment. But still, I met her and we built a relationship and I was ten years your senior.

What are your hobbies? Do you have any pets? Any activities or hobbies you've been considering getting into?

I know this can be hard. I haven't had a hug in over a year. Not looking for sympathy here, just reporting facts. It can be hard. But you have many, many years ahead of you. It sounds like what you need to do is develop a more effective strategy for meeting potential people. That is totally possible. So, what about hobbies, activities, and pets?