Am I a bad person or is this ridiculous?

Luckily, my hobbies are such that I don't have to leave home (good in quarantine situation), but on the unfortunate side, I don't get to meet people. In current social distance situation, sadly, I won't be meeting people in quite some time. Also, any groups, and churches are not recommended now. So only social circles I could join are online. But I am not so lucky in that area.
Since I am illustrator, comic artist and writer for hobbies, I posted some of my work online but received no views. I know I should work for myself and my own satisfaction but to be honest, I would really like someone else also to enjoy my work. But no one ever visits my pages, on either social media. That also saddens me a bit.
On this topic, he is now sending me messages that he is worried as he didn't hear from me in several days, but at this point I really don't know what to reply. So I don't. I am not being evil or trying to hurt him, I just don't know what to write. IT's silly at this point after 13 years that we are messaging each other like teenagers. There are phones, we live like 4 km from each other. I can't message anymore, it is just not enough anymore. He sounds like he is worried, but I am not sure anymore, is he really worried about me, or he just needs someone to adore him and listen to him. I faced him before with this dillema but he was offended, and sad. How could I even think that? How couldn't I? What gets me is that after all these years I am starting to realise, he really is authentic. He is not pretending, there is no agenda, he honestly thinks this is great relationship. And he is seriously saddened and surprised when I question that. I have no idea why is he like that, everyone has some weird personalities but this hurts other people.

Well yes you can’t get out now in pandemics. I meant in general when things are back to normal. You said it’s been going on for many years and this man is your only bright spot in life, you have no friends and no support. You didn’t say your life is this way because of pandemics. I sure never suggested you go do all this in the middle of quarantine. Now everyone is stuck.

Maybe I misunderstood. I thought it’s been ongoing long difficulty for you not something caused by covid. You said you can’t go to his house because of covid. But what about previous 13 years. Pandemics only started in March or so. I am confused now what’s this issue about. If it’s strictly pandemics issue then it’s a different topic

Good luck with everything. Best wishes