Why do the people that *DO* care show it in messed up ways?

well maybe people just shouldn't care about each other. My treatment team doesn't take purging as seriously as cutting, so why should S? Why does S eevn give a shyt what I do? We're not fking or anything like that. I would let him slice his wrists open if that's what he really wanted to do. Freedom.
Apparently I don't care about anybody and I don't want anybody to care about me. what's he gonna do next? Cut my fingers off? Tie me up after I eat? (ooh ) DIY tube me and cut me off from food so I don't binge?
He didn't even s tart with a "hey, stop, what're you doing" or anything like that.
And calling me a wuss for not eating when he wants doesn't help. Saying he's going to knock me out doesn't help. Bringing home loads of trigger foods because "binging is better than restricting" doesn't help. Watching me like a god damn hawk and making faces at what I eat and when I take my time and when I choose weird stuff doesn't help.
May;e I can understand the tackling if for some reason he has some sort of attachment (I certainly hate his fking guts and hope he feels the same and I better find a d ifferentplace to live soon but whatever) because it's a reaction but seriously there's a difference between taking the knife away and fking slamming the person into the floor.