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I mentioned a few things, including that dumping this all (her work) on me while my dog was dying (yes, I was taking him to be put to sleep that week) was upsetting me. I was agreeing with my ex client that the woman's incompetence was annoying and angering. And my client did a 180 and started calling me unprofessional for talking about the woman and said I was damaging our professional relationship. You kind of get whiplash from how fast they do a 180 when you're literally just talking about what they were talking about. It's like turning the corner and seeing a rattlesnake. Sent from my SM-N986U using Tapatalk
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What if I fall? Oh, my dear, but what if you fly? Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia. Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less... |
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Last edited by ArmorPlate108; Mar 22, 2024 at 07:29 PM. |
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Unfortunately, this happens a lot in relationships where there is alcohol or drug abuse in the mix. Alcohol abuse is a very narcissistic disorder and hurts all involved with the person. And the person engages in covert acts of denial and play the victim. Last edited by Open Eyes; Mar 22, 2024 at 08:36 PM. |
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What if I fall? Oh, my dear, but what if you fly? Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia. Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less... |
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"And your mother just wants it to go away because she can’t see her way to seeing things from anyone’s point of view but her own"
You won't hear me say anything against Mom. She was always a wonderful person. I don't know why she turned to alcohol, but I believe she was emotionally lonely. She has always been immensely kind, thoughtful and careful with our emotions. She committed fully to stopping drinking and she did. She's a very compassionate and emotionally intelligent person. Today I got overwhelmed and talked to one of my Dad's sisters. She said.... In case no one's told you, your father has some, maybe a lot, of narcissistic traits. But he's not a bad person. If you're expecting him to feel what you're feeling, he can't and he doesn't understand it. He will always think he's right. We just let him. Who cares. If you accept this as a mental illness, or a mental inability, you'll start having more peace. The stuff you're expecting is confusing and distressful to him. He's very giving in HIS way. Just let it be that. Holy. Moley. I need time to adjust to this, but I think.... I think she hit it. |
ArmorPlate108, Open Eyes, unaluna
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Open Eyes, unaluna
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Obviously I don't know the details of your family, but just wanted to say that many people with substance problems are the victims of other forms of abuse, including narcissistic. If one's never learned good processing/coping mechanisms, the anxiety, cognitive dissonance, guilt, shame, etc is often dealt with through substances. Some narcissists are addicts, but hardly all addicts are narcissists.
And sometimes having an addict on hand benefits the narcissist. Easy target or scapegoat, or someone to prove just how wonderful they are, trying to care for, and help, this unfortunate person. That's a trip that your family member spoke openly about how the they accept his ways and just do their own thing. That, sadly, really is about all you can do with a narc. But I'll add to that, you do need strong boundaries in place. Boundaries don't set the other person straight, or change the other person directly. Boundaries are a civil way of you finding the edges of yourself, living into and liking who YOU are, and not allowing another person to overstep where they're not invited. |
eskielover, Open Eyes, seesaw
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"Boundaries are a civil way of you finding the edges of yourself"
That's beautiful. Thank you |
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Open Eyes
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Just saying...
It's the weekend. My oldest and I made dinner together Friday evening. Youngest went to a friend's for a sleepover. After dinner, we all went to the neighbors' for dessert and a visit. Youngest came home after lunch. We did laundry and worked on cars and cleaned all day. This evening the kids friends and girlfriends came over, and the parents of one of the kids. We all had pizza, garlic fingers, and shrimp. The big kids hung out in the basement with the stereo just bumping. Then all eight of us hung out and played board games and card games all night. The kitchen table is still full with kids and adults playing games... This is so easy and so good. RDM |
ArmorPlate108, eskielover, Open Eyes, seesaw, TryToBeBetter, unaluna
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TishaBuv, unaluna
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I had something happen at work recently where I verbally shut someone down.
Yesterday I had an hour long meeting with my way up the ladder boss. I was told that this is what has held me back over the years. I have more knowledge, education, ability, technical ability, and a broader skill set than anyone else in my organization, and I have contributed to more projects and initiaves that have remained part of our organization for in excess of ten years in some cases, but once in a while, "happens less than 5% of the time" I "school" someone. I was told that even though the things I say may be valid, my sudden ability to shut someone down makes it hard to work with me. I was told, there has never been a complaint about my conduct from a female colleague. I was told my female colleagues speak well of me and feel supported. I have a history of out producing my contemporaries, and a history of supporting new hires, and supporting the organization by ensuring a smooth transition of work flow from me to other staff anytime responsibilities or portfolios have changed, thereby ensuring there is no lost production or backward steps in the organization. But sometimes I shut people down. I said I know I have done that. I said I am overflowing with frustration and lost progress in things I have contributed to. That there have been projects I have contributed to, in some cases for years, and the work has been lost..... truly... Digital files that another team member lost, and then lost again. I told my boss, "You don't know how frustrating that is, and how foolish we look on the front line to a client." Boss said, "I understand that." I said, "No you don't. It's really bad and extremely frustrating. We lost our way as an organization for several years, and we re-doing years worth of work, again." Boss said, "See? That is a perfect example of the issue with you. You just corrected me. You schooled me." I said "Do you have an understanding of what this is like dealing with this on a daily basis?" Boss: "Well... No.... But you can't make people feel like that. You snap people to attention and school them. Because of that, I can't make you part of a cohesive team anywhere in the organization, so there really isn't a way to advance you." Wow. The thing is.... This mirrors my personal life so much. I'm so tired of being "the angry and difficult" one. RDMercer |
ArmorPlate108, eskielover, Open Eyes
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I tend to be like you. If someone is doing something wrong they need to learn it is not ok & I am usually the one to clue them in.
Think your company is a reflection on society.....let the wrong go unschooled because we don't want to hurt their feelings or make them feel wrong even though they are (hurting the company in this case) or hurting others. Lack of accountability stinks
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Leo's favorite place was in the passenger seat of my truck. We went everywhere together like this. Leo my soulmate will live in my heart FOREVER Nov 1, 2002 - Dec 16, 2018 |
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Open Eyes, RDMercer
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You know what Eskie?
I figured I'd hear from you. Thank you |
eskielover
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When you're good at something and others are just mediocre, it can be hard to get along. Because your "just enough" will always be 20x better than their "just enough", and so you will always feel like you do more. Sent from my SM-N986U using Tapatalk
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What if I fall? Oh, my dear, but what if you fly? Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia. Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less... |
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Lol.....I just couldn't resist.
I have experienced this so many times in my career & in my marriage. Lol.....11 years after I left he said he hated it cause I was always right but he fought me anyway cause he hated being wrong. We had one college grad who was smart but all the other engineers saw him as lazy. I actually taught him our hardware degugging system & he ended up excelling. Had a section manager who thought he knew it all & screwed up an update to a data link program I wrote because he refused to talk to me about how it was designed. A engineer who was a friend of mine took it over & worked with me to fix it. Attitude is everything. Some are willing to learn from others some just want to be the know it all & mess it up instead of asking It is hard being better at things & not willing to settle for not even ok in silence.
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Leo's favorite place was in the passenger seat of my truck. We went everywhere together like this. Leo my soulmate will live in my heart FOREVER Nov 1, 2002 - Dec 16, 2018 |
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Well, I got some validation today.
A friend said When I look at you I see intelligence, competence, and passion. You think strategically and immediately see the big picture. I've always heard your reputation for shutting people down. You've always been all-in on every hand you're dealt, and surprised others aren't. They're right. You aren't a manager. You're a leader. They've been using you wrong for years. |
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Leo's favorite place was in the passenger seat of my truck. We went everywhere together like this. Leo my soulmate will live in my heart FOREVER Nov 1, 2002 - Dec 16, 2018 |
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What if I fall? Oh, my dear, but what if you fly? Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia. Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less... |
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eskielover, Open Eyes, RDMercer, unaluna
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Thanks
BTW, @seesaw... After that meeting, my boss told me essentially they were counting on me remaining in my current role, but advising on upcoming projects. I said... You realize I'm the most experienced person in our organization by 5 years. If I leave, you'll be hiring a consultant. A consultant is worth 5x my salary. Well... Yes. Then I'll be planning my transition out to become an entrepreneur. "Well.... This was not the conversation I expected to have today." "I understand, But it's been really informative for me and gives me some targets." RDMercer |
ArmorPlate108, Open Eyes
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eskielover, seesaw, TryToBeBetter
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This is how my father was, always knowing more than his commanders when he served in WWII. When it came time for his ship that he was on to go back out on another tour I of duty the commander would not have my father go on that tour. It ended up saving his life because that ship was hit by a torpedo and all the men in his unit were killed. Had he gone he would have also lost his life. I would not exist to write this post. Nothing wrong with improving your behaviors. Yet you can change the lacks in others. |
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These conversations can give you an idea of where you are. However, it’s important to give it thought before deciding to make any changes. Also don’t react with “then I am leaving” as that can push things in a direction that’s not helpful at all. Instead it’s better to make a move when you have a plan so you can cover your expenses of your mortgage etc.
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My actual response was less direct.
It was something like, Then it's time for me to plan my transition out of here in the next two years. It might be time to look at entrepreneurial opportunities. |
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Why don’t you look into being a consultant? See what is available in the job market.
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I have attempted in the past to point out that you seem "stuck" or stagnant in moving out of your marriage and ruminate over events that occurred in the past. Your responses to me were that I don't understand how fill-in-the-blank it is for you, your wife is a covert narcissist, etc. Then you have lectured me about covert narcissism and loop back to how unless I can understand YOU, I have nothing of importance for you to consider. After a few tries in getting you unstuck, I no longer offer my observations because it is too difficult. You will always respond with how I cannot possibly understand due to fill-in-the-blank. Life does not require that people understand you. If you want to work collaboratively and as part of a team and perhaps progress in your career as a result of that, it actually requires that you put your nose to the grindstone and do the work, without blaming others for not understanding YOU. My experience in observing your posts over the years is that you will only respond favorably to posts enabling your current behavior or taking "your" side on an issue. The responses after you described the work encounter testify to that as well. There are a couple of people who will always explain away any difficulty you have with others by saying the other person is intimidated/narcissistic/alcoholic/unreasonable and you will always gravitate to those responses almost immediately and use them to justify your position. |
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Leo's favorite place was in the passenger seat of my truck. We went everywhere together like this. Leo my soulmate will live in my heart FOREVER Nov 1, 2002 - Dec 16, 2018 |
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^^^^
Thank you eskie! I was sitting here wanting to respond and your post reflects my own sentiments. I think RD has been making progress. It simply doesn’t happen overnight, you are correct on that. |
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