[myoasis89]

My bf is gone for a month to iran to visit his dieing grandmother whom he is very close to. I've been having troubles at home and have great depression. my sister won't be coming down because she wants to be with her bf. My nieces are going to see my brother and his fiance and they are not going to visit my parents because they are fighting and it's just me and my parents. No money for presents...I just lost my job and am looking for another one so I can pay my way thoough school. I don't know if I should tell my bf that I don't want him to email me while he's gone. It gets me upset when he doesn't reply right away...I cried because I wait for his reply and it when he hasn't replied it's dissapointing and gets me upset. I thought it would be easier to just forget him for a month and it will be easier for me to get through this. I feel my bf is the closest relationship I have. He's closer to me than my parents. He means a lot to me...but sometimes he hurts me becuase he does not fully understand my needs because of my problems. He says he would never hurt me and wonders why I get upset. He wishes I would trust him more. I trust him but he hurts me without knowing it....I just want to forget everyone and do things for myself. Without having to check my email inbox...I won't have to worry about whether or not he has emailed me....I know it sounds dumb...but he's the one person I look forward to and need

[gimmeice]

((((((((((( Myoasis )))))))))))))))))))


I am sorry that you are having a hard time. Is there anyway that you can make an arrangement for him to initiate the emailing and when responding you could write something that he doesn't really have to respond to at least right away. Of course if you choose to not have contact with him then that is your choice but I would leave the option open in case you change your mind.
Hopefully you will find a job soon and the month will go faster for you, remember you always have us here to lean on when things get difficult.

[chiz]

I'd be away with my bf this Christmas, too. We'll be with our parents and this means we'll be apart longer than usual. I think I can relate to your feelings. It seems like I don't want him to text me anymore because he seldom do it. Unlike before wherein he texts me like whole day and night. But today, not anymore. I'd even be surprised that he's already back to our apartment when he texts. That's why sometimes I don't text him back right away or I just end the text conversation. But like me, I know you'll feel better when you get back together. Just find some things to keep yourself busy. I also hope you'd get a job soon. Take care.

[turquoisesea]

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I'll be away from my bf too. I'm so sad about it. I never want to leave him. We're going to be states away, and I'm not even completely sure if I can come back up when break is over.

I'm sorry that I don't have advice, but I feel your pain