[Zen888]

Hi Everyone

I am beyond sad.....I am just numb and in shock now.

My brother wants distance from me and he says that he doesnt miss me. He said I have borderline persoanlity disorder. He is my only living family member (both parents are dead).

I feel so alone. I feel angry that he doesnt care for me anymore.

I give up....I am tired of trying to ask for forgiveness for being bipolar. I am not suicidal I just am very very sad and feel so isolated. Like im looking at everyone that has a family but me.

I dont know what to do. I only have one friend. I feel so sad and alone.

Zen888

[St. John Wort]

I have the same issues, as I'm sure a lot of others with bi-polar have. My sister hates my guts and tells people I'm a drug addict, which in turn makes me resent her (naturally). We have a strained relationship to say the least. I am totally passive with her when I should be more assertive. She means a lot to me, so I'm reluctant to confront her. She gossips with all her friends about me and then wonders why I avoid her. If I complain she tells me or my parents that I'm paranoid, which I am, but I'm not stupid- and some of the things she's done are stupid and transparent.

I'm sorry you are having problems. Hopefully time will heal them. I wish I could be of more use to you, but I'm in a pretty deep hole myself. I wish you well- S

[salukigirl]

you shouldnt have to ask forgiveness for being manic depressive. its not your fault. i understand that you feel alone but, even though you cant see us, everyone here is here for you whether your brother is or not.

my sister is the same way. she threatened to not attend my high school graduation because she didnt approve of the guy I was dating at the time....

to me it seems like maybe he is frustrated? he is also probably feeling very alone and doesnt know how to deal with that plus you being bipolar. im sure he wants to help but doesnt feel he can do anything. dealing with people who have bipolar disorder can make you feel very helpless because you know there is nothing really that you can do for them besides be there.

im sure if you give it some time he will come around and be more understanding. and if he doesnt, you always have people here to help you as much as we can.