[TheDeliciousDish]

I love my girlfriend to death. I don't even like calling her my girlfriend. She's my life partner, really.

My ex and I haven't been together in over 3 years. She and I had had sex about a year in to our relationship.... and broke up a couple months later when she had sex with someone else. After about a month of being really upset and trying to figure things out, I didn't talk to her for several months... then started talking to her again and we became pretty good friends again. I think I did that because I couldn't deal with how much it hurt to have been betrayed... so I pretended it never happened.

When I first got together with my girlfriend now, I was still talking to my ex regularly. For whatever reason, that didn't come up in our conversations, and I feel awful for it now. My girlfriend thought I only talked to her once in a blue moon. She felt betrayed, and rightfully so.

Almost not a single day goes by now without me being reminded that I've had someone before. I think somewhere deep down, she knows I love her more than anything in the world. But there's a part of her that's still always there that refuses to believe she's anything but a second. She has obsessively researched my ex online and will try to convince me that my ex is better than her.

I don't know if I've explained everything properly or not, but I don't even know what to do. I tell her every day how much I love her, how much I care, but she feels that I've given *everything* to my ex, and have nothing left to give her. I'm working on getting a necklace for her, and I'm making it myself to be as personal as possible. She badly wants this as a physical symbol of my love for her, but I'm unfortunately waiting on a paycheck to make this possible.

I don't even know what I'm asking for. Just, if anyone has any sort of advice, I'd just really appreciate it. I feel dead without her around, and feel like I'm losing her, even though I'm pretty sure I'm not. Thanks for reading.

~TheDeliciousDish

[Bellatrix00]

I think we all have insecurities when it comes to the ex. The worry that our partner still has feelings for the ex, wondering if we're second best and the fear of being compared to the ex. I guess you just have to keep showing her that SHE is #1!

How long have you been with her? I think her asking for a necklace to prove your love is a bit unreasonable. Especially when it is obviously out of your budget if you have to wait for a paycheck to buy it. If she's asking for it, then it's not really a symbol of your love for her. More just a symbol that you can follow instructions. Just my oppinion though

[I_WMD]

Sorry if I say something stupid ,,,[ but I have been known to do that ].

Deli ????? You are 21 years old . ............. calling someone " Your life partner " ,,, That IMO , will take a weeee bit longer .

As Bella said >> [ using the word * insecurities * ] >>>... It comes with the territory .

Time ,, as is said >>> heals all wounds .

And I have never heard the phrase >> Jewelry does that ..... ' cept as given with a " Will You Marry Me ?"

So ,, maybe let Youth run its' course . Life truly is not that short ,, just littered with speed bumps . LOL.

WMD.