[bananasarecool]

ive had three sessions so far..
ive only really been able to bring up a couple of things thatve been.. hard
and even though its confidential and she wont judge... i just dont know how to talk about the rest.
i cant open up... i wont look her in the eye. i just end up staring down at the floor.
she thinks its just these petty things which are bothering me.. and i have no idea how to tell her more. ive never had a t before and i dont really know... what to do
i dont normally open up to people, so its a start. its just not enough.
just touching on a few minor issues is playing havoc with my emotions.
im crying a lot.
im getting mad a lot.
and im avoiding talking to pretty much everyone except my boyfriend, and even then our conversations are only brief right now.
arghh.
its all just a mess.
how do you open up to somebody?
i want to. i just feel like i cant.

[deliquesce]

hi bananas,
you're being brave by opening up to your T, no matter how small the issues are at the moment. i took a long time to discuss the heavy stuff too. it's just a part of learning to trust them.
if you are getting impatient with yourself, maybe you could write her a letter? i find that a bit easier than talking sometimes.
also - you might find you get more responses if you post this in the "psychotherapy" forum further down in PC. i don't know if you've already tried that, but it seems to be the busy hub .
hth,
deli

I think you're doing great. It took me a long, long time to really open up to my therapist, maybe a year or more. Writing a letter is a good idea. I sometimes do that when I am having trouble talking about something.