[axl1]

i have posttraumatic strees disorder and panic and anxiety attacks i am 29 years i lost my sister. she was 27 years old i was in 3 car accidets big one less than a year in half i have a 3 year old boy that i love with all my heart i could not live with out him he is my life i cant work right now every day my wife tells me that am not worth nothing that family is nothing she tells me every bad word there is she tells me that she sleeps with other men she tells me that she wishes that i would die and i think i take all of this because of my son because she tells me she is going to take him from me that i would never see him again because if she lives me the courts will give my son to her and thats why some times i would want god to take me so ican be with my sister but i fell sad for my son because she tells him so many bad words that i will take the abuse for his love am a grown man my 3 year old son sometimes sees me crying and he gives me a hug and wipes my tears away and says to stop crying dady and i stop but when he is alsleep i cry all night think of geting a divorce and finding somebody that would love me but my son is first and i dont matter anyways she wasnot like that when i meet her because i had a good paying job she did not work at the time i bought her a house a car and i payed for her to go to school then she got a job and we had are son and when everthing happend to and i stooped working she started to act like that. i feel like iam going die young anyways i am basicly geeting this of my chest because i hope like i say me and my sister and my family and my son will be in heaven happy were there is no pain to go threw. i guess my life is to be sad tell the rest of my life. but when i hold my son i feel so happy and sad in the same time GOD HELP ME PLEASE

[wanttoheal]

(((((((((((((((((((((axl1)))))))))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry for your pain.

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((((((((axl1))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

i'm so sorry for everything that you've gone and are going through. are you in therapy?

Love your heart. i wish so much for you right now.

kd

[Wants2Fly]

Dear Axl1 --

You are in a hard place right now. Your deep pain touches my heart. I am so sorry that you are in such deep pain.

(((((((((((((((((((Axl))))))))))))))))) (This is our way of expressing hugs)

Do you have a therapist or marriage counselor? It doesn't matter if you're wife won't go or if you have to go in secret. It will be good for you to be able to talk about this with another human being.

If you don't have much money right now, try a church (even if you don't attend the church), Family Services (usually run by the United Way charities) or the City/County department of health/mental health.

Please keep letting us know how you feel and how you are doing.

[nothemama8]

(((((((((Axl)))))))))
Angie

[SpazKatt]

*hugs*

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((axl))))))))))))))))

[cms39]

(((((Axl1))))) I'm so sorry you are feeling so bad. Please get some help. Call a crisis hotline if you need to, please. A therapist and/ or psychiatrist could really help you. Please let us know how you are.

[nightdream]

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I'm sorry for your pain!

nightdream