"In the pain, there is healing"

Before anyone thinks this is in the wrong forum - I'll explain. Yes, this post is about me losing her...but the "process of goodbye" is even harder, because I do have very profound feelings for her. So, that's why it's in this sub-forum and not just the Psychotherapy Forum.

So, T went on her interviews for internships last week. It will be somewhere out of state. In our session today I tried to avoid speaking of it. I didn't want to cry today. After a while, the crying starts to feel very pathetic...even in a therapy session.

Leave it to T to bring it up and "gently force" me to discuss it. I told her "I'm not going to cry today , damnit." She just smiled and replied "Ok". We talked about it a bit, but I was able to keep away from going into great depth about it. I didn't cry , although there were times I wanted to.

When I got to my car after the session, I turned the radio on. I was just barely keeping my composure...and when this song came on right away...I lost it. I don't think there has ever been a more perfect song to describe my feelings for someone, or about a situation. Just thought I'd share it here. It's not my normal music genre...but I love it none the less.

I especially like the line that goes "In the pain, there is healing" That's something T says to me often...I haven't found the healing yet, although I welcome it with open arms.

Love it! Thanks.

I just listened to it. Yes, it has a lot of meaning in it.