I can't believe this

I Can't believe there is a forum for this. I'm totally head over heals for my T. I swore I was the only one in the world who would be that silly. This is seriously blowing my mind right now.

My T is so amazing. I'm always thinking about him. The way dresses, the way he smells, the way he talks. how blue his eyes are, how tall he is, just everything about him drives me crazy. I always get real excited when its time for a session. I always make sure I do my eye make up because he likes to talk about my eyes when I do. he always tell me how good I look. I just wish I had the guts to tell him how sexy he looks.

I fantasize about having intercourse with him. where it'll be, what he'll do, how good it'll be, the things he'll say to me. It's just amazing.

I wish I could just give him a clue without making it awkward.

Having been exactly where you are (and still am!), it's only gonna get worse if you don't tell him. As long as you're not expecting it to lead anywhere, transference (romantic, erotic, or otherwise) can be some great material. It might get awkward, but I feel that is simply par for the course.

You can can start off the conversation by saying, "So...I've been having these feelings lately..." and take it from there. Or write him a note and have him either read it in session, or give it to him to read in private. Most therapists are trained to deal with this.

Still in love with my t for many years; told him a long time ago. It happens a lot; the therapist client relationship can be intense and many feelings come up. It may be the first time in our lives that anyone has validated us and that is powerful.