[Loco4]

Hi all,

Last fortnight my t and I attempted to talk about my erotic transference, and she had a list of questions I had wanted to ask just about therapy in general and also about her.

One of them was her experience with LGBTIQ patients. I did secretly hope she would disclose her own sexuality. I had assumed she was queer, and I am a queer female. Sure enough she did, but made a point to say she's in a long term same sex relationship.

It was right at the end of the session. It ending kind of awkwardly. As soon as I got to my car I balled my eyes out. I just keeping "I told you she would have a girlfriend" "I bet she's beautiful together woman" "why would she be into you" etc etc.

That night I got really high and wrote a ten page letter to t explaining what I was thinking and how I felt. And profusely apologising for prying into her life. She called me and reassured me its all okay.

Tomorrows our next session, I'm terrified



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[baseline]

I'm sorry you are terrified loco. You were brave to open up like that. Maybe now you have opened up new avenues of discussion with your T. Maybe now you can move forward with therapy. It is not easy to talk about or admit transference. I felt like an idiot after I told my T. He made no comments and we never discussed it after. He kind of avoided my expression and I was grateful he didn't make a big deal out of it. I t was like I got it off my chest and then concentrated on my issues. Don't be terrified be proud that you were able to open up and I hope it goes well for you.

[wheeler]

Good for you for bringing the topic up. It's not easy, but it does get easier.