I cry when some one says or does something nice for me

My car broke down again and my x husband's brother said he won't fix it any more because it is a piece of junk and to put any more money into it would just be a waste of money. So, my x husband said in a few months, he is getting some money from a business settlement and he will buy me a Toyota Camry. I said oh you can't do that.. Cars don't mean anything to me. I just need a lil ole car to get me here and there. He said he knows, but that I also need a dependable car that doesn't break down all the time.. And all I can do is cry.....cry.. and cry.. Even if he doesn't follow through, the thought was ooo so kind..

I am becoming an emotional basket case.. Crying over my dog, crying that my son is soooooooooo verbally abusive to me... now crying what my x husband said..

Maybe this is how God answers prayers. Even tho I still hurt from the bad marriage, I still pray for my x to be happy. And when my first pug died several years ago, I was heart broken. And I never would have dreamed I'd have another pug. Because, you see, I have nooooooooooooo money.. My living arrangements are most unusual, but maybe also a blessing from God. And now I am surrounded by two pugs.

And the house the x husband bought for my son is a cute lil yellow house.. and I prayed and said I'd love to live in a nice lil yellow house. And bam ... I get to live in a yellow house.

You see, I don't need to have "ownership" of things. I have found when I did own a house, folks used me or took advantage of my good nature. Having nothing that folks can steal or manipulate me to get gives me a good feeling..Besides, in reality, ownership of "things" is not what brings one happiness. It comes from within ..

I am blessed in oo so many ways and I am sooo very thankful to God. I still need extra prayers for my son. I do pray his anger will cease and he will find his path in life. And that he will get that CS degree, although he has failed several classes that at this time is preventing him to graduate.

God is ooo sooo good. I feel so unworthy of anything. God is blessing me and I am crying.....

Just releasing feelings. Some I understand.. Some I don't. Off for a short nap..

RadioFlyer...I so understand.
I place little to no importance on material things. I let my exhusband have most everything, just so I could be free, and I would remain on good terms with him.
On one level...it's all just "stuff," which means nothing. On the other hand, you DO need a car which is dependable. Let the EX buy a car for you!
You're a sweetie.
Patty