Energy fields

When I unfocus my eyes, or soften my gaze, I see energy fields around everything. People don't all have even similar colors. It is similar only to infrared but stops in that everything has its own energy and colors. The interesting thing is when a group of people are focused on the same thing, as in meditation and savasana, they become the same light. I have a certain yoga instructor that I feel is in the parking lot and say every time "B's here"(name shortened on purpose) and she always is and never arrives at the exact same time. She glows the most beautiful colors. Even more odd, I'm colorblind to a degree in all three primaries. Could it be that I have this as a gift? Some people have very dark energy that pulls from everything they walk by and are frightening. I've tried talking to some of them and after patience I can see them lighten up at least some. These people are usually SMILING before I met them, so they're hiding the problems very well. Plants, inanimate objects, everything has these fields. When mine is darker, I can't see anything but the dark of me.
I had a spiritual awakening early this year, when I left my body, but still existed in both and had an argument with myself about the existence of the spirit. The "yeas" won. It was shortly after that this gift started. It's beautiful and scary at the same time. Someone told me I was cracking up and crazy or that it was all the drugs I used 20+ years ago. If that's the case, why do I experience this on demand, I've learned to call it up any time. I've always had the ability to draw people out, even though myself I'm staying closed off and distant.
Thanks for reading this oddball mess of me. I'd appreciate all responses, and if you want, we can discuss in private if you're not wanting others to read your feelings or thoughts about it.

i used to 'perceive' auras, with my own i think,,, i didn't 'see' them exactly.
i lost most of my abilities when i got brain damage from being poisoned about 25 yrs ago, but gradually i am re-establishing connections...

it's not the gift that is meaningful, (is what i learned), but what you do with it... good on you for trying to perk up the negs...

I just did some work with an energy healer and feel there's much to this and much to learn.

Wonderful for you! I'd love to hear more.

We are made of energy, we have energy fields around us, I do believe, and you do have a gift. Almost sounds like you see people's auras - dark, light and colored, even if you can't see the three primaries. This is wonderful! I used to work with energy healers too, and Shamans. It's really fascinating stuff. I would love to learn more.

The feeling other's emotions is not comfortable a lot of the time, but I try to remember that my sensing of their pain is probably not as bad as their experiencing it. I only feel it when they're near. They've already been dealing with it

Ooh, I can imagine that would be difficult. It's good that you keep this in mind, what you've pointed out. I am an empath and naturally feel other's people's pain. I try to separate myself from it and do aura cleansing/energy cleansing often so that I can eliminate the feeling. It helps.

How do I do this? What works for you? Please tell

Simple. There are tons of energy cleansing/aura cleansing guided meditations available on YouTube. Actually, what I do is called chakra clearing rather than aura cleansing, but this is similar in nature and end result. Let me know if you try one of these and how the end result is -- I'd be curious!

The better of my meditation techniques involves sounds like cicadas(the best!), crickets, and even the sounds of children playing in the distance. I go to the park and sit with my back to everyone and just drift away into The Empty. Second is standing in wind, without a shirt or very thin shirt, with my arms outstretched and feeling it over my whole body. I'd love to do it naked but there are neighbors here. My third is candles, but somehow they always go out once I return, and right when I open my eyes, because I see the little puff of smoke. That used to scare me, but I realized it's the Universe welcoming me back by her wishing on the candles for me.
I have trouble letting the bad energy I've collected go and it becomes internalized and I tend to use it against my self. I know that's bad and I'm misplacing it and need to release it. My usual intention for yoga practices is the mantra "Lokah samastah sukhino bhavantu" meaning "may all beings be happy, may all beings be free" but I've begun to dedicate to those I know need the good energy. A friend hadn't slept in 2 days, but was asleep before the practice was over. She was nowhere near me, 250 miles away

Sounds like you have some good practices down already. That's very sweet of you to dedicate your yoga mantras to those who need good energy. But releasing the bad energy is important for your own health and well being. Perhaps try the chakra clearing, too.... it works wonders for me and releases any negativity I am carrying around. Now I want to get back into it again, just mentioning it, lol.

I intend to

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Let me/us know how it works out for you! (((Hugs)))

You have a very positive incident in life. Those who aspire to the Great Purpose and Great Work experience some Awakening. You can use this as a Gift.
How many years have you been practicing meditation and yoga?