[Desoxyn]

I can feel emotions slightly. My soul doesn't. I don't want to exist anymore. Whatever happens when I die, I don't care. I feel like life is pointless and there's no point of living.

I know this sounds somewhat suicidal but it really isn't. It's my SOUL. I'm not depressed right now. I don't see the light (The spiritual light) and I can be a very spiritual person.

I've used my fair share of psychedelics. Psychedelic rock seems to be the only thing that makes me see. Music for tripping is truly meant for tripping. It has its own entity that makes the listener SEE.

All the things I think about, I wish just disappeared. I need a break. To sleep without dreams. I'm scared of dying because I don't want to leave people behind. I'm holding onto my ego. My ego seems to be all that I am. Worthless to me. I am really instead energy being a human.

This may pass if my heart doesn't stop because I have a fear of it stopping. But I care less about it stopping more than usual. I need a vacation or a break from my life. I need to relax. I'm relaxed more now that I've come home from work.

So many things are inspiring and magical but I don't care for them right now. My soul is apathetic to my hallucinated reality.

Peace, love, tranquility to all <3

[sarahsweets]

Are you saying you are tripping now and feel this way?

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry, Desoxyn It seems like you're going through a lot right now. Is there anything else going on in your life right now? Are you feeling stressed or having a difficult situation? Perhaps that may be the reason why you're feeling like this. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You coudl learn new ways to cope with your numbness, if you haven't already. Just keep doing what you're doing. Try to find some distractions for yourselves like you're already doing. Anything that could help you feel better. Music is good. I'm glad it's helping a bit! Try to take some time for yourself. Hopefully this feeling of numbness will pass soon. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope you'll feel better soon. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this

[Desoxyn]

Originally Posted by sarahsweets

Are you saying you are tripping now and feel this way?

No. But from 3 years ago my last trip never stopped in spirit..

[Desoxyn]

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

I'm so sorry, Desoxyn It seems like you're going through a lot right now. Is there anything else going on in your life right now? Are you feeling stressed or having a difficult situation? Perhaps that may be the reason why you're feeling like this. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You coudl learn new ways to cope with your numbness, if you haven't already. Just keep doing what you're doing. Try to find some distractions for yourselves like you're already doing. Anything that could help you feel better. Music is good. I'm glad it's helping a bit! Try to take some time for yourself. Hopefully this feeling of numbness will pass soon. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope you'll feel better soon. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this

Thanks for the support. I'm feeling slightly better spiritually. Doesn't take long for me to see I guess. I'm stressed about school and work but I can focus better on studying now. I just hold back everything and don't live in the moment. I'm still alive and I'm thankful for that. I want to buy an electric guitar. I want to do a lot of things, learn a lot of things and say a lot of things. I just sometimes feel an emptiness that things won't change and I'll be like this forever. That's what I'm afraid of. I'm going to call my therapist tomorrow and make an appointment. My soul is numb because it doesn't want to continue in the setting that I'm in and it's on strike.

[mote.of.soul]

“Remain in the world, act in the world, do whatsoever is needful, and yet remain transcendental, aloof, detached, a lotus flower in the pond.”― Osho

[wolfgaze]

Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I can feel emotions slightly. My soul doesn't. I don't want to exist anymore. Whatever happens when I die, I don't care. I feel like life is pointless and there's no point of living.

I know this sounds somewhat suicidal but it really isn't. It's my SOUL. I'm not depressed right now. I don't see the light (The spiritual light) and I can be a very spiritual person.

I've used my fair share of psychedelics. Psychedelic rock seems to be the only thing that makes me see. Music for tripping is truly meant for tripping. It has its own entity that makes the listener SEE.

All the things I think about, I wish just disappeared. I need a break. To sleep without dreams. I'm scared of dying because I don't want to leave people behind. I'm holding onto my ego. My ego seems to be all that I am. Worthless to me. I am really instead energy being a human.

This may pass if my heart doesn't stop because I have a fear of it stopping. But I care less about it stopping more than usual. I need a vacation or a break from my life. I need to relax. I'm relaxed more now that I've come home from work.

So many things are inspiring and magical but I don't care for them right now. My soul is apathetic to my hallucinated reality.

Peace, love, tranquility to all <3

The Dark Night Of The Soul
* Eckhart on the Dark Night of the Soul | by Eckhart Tolle

The End Of Suffering
* http://www.eckharttollenow.com/artic...d-Of-Suffering