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Old Apr 30, 2009, 07:07 AM
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Good luck with finding a new T, Phoenix! May you find someone well qualified, caring and compassionate who can be a true partner in your healing.
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begin transmission
11.30.64 heh.finale (02) -111 11.22.63 jpl 156 435 666/93 abaddon temple annihilation bridge
rev10 priestess 98 world-soul choronzon reversal babalon fallen forfeiture 01. unfinished sequence.
system compromised. code gray. retrieval and cycling initiated 11.28.08, 74 >> 75

end transmission
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>> postcards from the abyss <<
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Old Apr 30, 2009, 07:19 AM
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Thankyou for your kind wishes Malady.
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Old Apr 30, 2009, 07:52 PM
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(((phoenix))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) hoping it works out
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Old Apr 30, 2009, 09:13 PM
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Don't know if this is the right place to post this - Feeling lost and alone ...... will somone sit with me.......
I AM SO SORRY THAT ARE IN THAT AWFUL PLACE. I SAW MY THERAPIST TODAY AND PRESENTED HIM WITH SIMILAR FEELINGS. HE REMINDED ME THAT WE ARE ALWAYS CONNECTED EVEN WHEN WE CAN'T ALLOW YOURSELVES TO ACCEPT THIS FACT. IT IS SO VITAL FOR OUR WELL BEING TO REACH OUT AND FEEL THAT CONNECTEDNESS. YOU ARE AWESOME! REACHING OUT TAKES COURAGE AND FAITH YOU ARE DOING IT!!! THE NEXT STEP IS TO ACCEPT THAT MANY OF US ARE SITTING WITH YOU AND IT IS BECAUSE WE WANT THIS CONNECTION WITH YOU.
LOSING A GREAT THERAPIST IS VERY FEARFUL AND SCARY. I CAN FEEL YOUR GRIEF, I SHARE YOUR GRIEF AND WILL SIT AND SHARE IT WITH YOU AS MANY OTHERS ARE DOING.
LIFE IS SUCH A . I AM WITH YOU!
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Old Apr 30, 2009, 11:15 PM
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(((Phoenix)) hoping for your new T soon
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Old May 01, 2009, 02:23 AM
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Thankyou muffy and thelionkinglives

I will see a new T in about a month - see old T for one last time in 2 weeks time - pdoc tomorrow so maybe that will help - SI urges are bad - think I am grieving for losing T - she has helped me a lot . But i am NOT giving in! One month and things willl have settled ... Ive done 2 years with PTSD so 1 ,omth shouldnt kill me lol

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Its not how many times you fall down that counts
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Will someone sit with me....
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet
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Old May 02, 2009, 07:55 AM
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Thankyou LSCS1950 -
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts
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Will someone sit with me....
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )

When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet
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Old May 02, 2009, 08:02 AM
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I went and saw pdoc today - when I went in I was shaking - scared witless and wanting to SI so bad - wnated toi run away - got up to leave as pdoc came to get me - lucky that !

Pdoc did some deep relaxation visualisation with me and I feel GREAT !!!

I went to a mind body spirit exhibition wiht my sister after that and I had a reiki? healing, a blessing and a meditation class - and I actually feel HAPPY before today I couldnt remember what happy felt like - today I CAN !!!

Tomorrow may suck - but today has been the best day since...... since before I can remember

Thankyou all for your support it has helped me survive

Sending you all and 's
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts
its how many times you get back up!
Will someone sit with me....
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )

When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet
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Old May 02, 2009, 09:04 AM
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(((((((( phoenix)))))))))))))))))))))))))))) yayayayaay

may you keep feeling good
Will someone sit with me....
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Old May 02, 2009, 07:32 PM
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thankyou for the beautful picture - its just how I feel - like the sun has finally found me hope it finds everyone else too
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts
its how many times you get back up!
Will someone sit with me....
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet
Thanks for this!
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Old May 03, 2009, 08:08 AM
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may it shine on you always ((((phoenix)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
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Old May 13, 2009, 10:43 PM
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triggered - sinking - empty - alone - someone please sit with me till I am safe again..................... sad and alone........... tears for the childhood that never was............ that i dont remember but that hurts so much...
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts
its how many times you get back up!
Will someone sit with me....
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )

When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet
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Old May 13, 2009, 11:44 PM
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Sitting and talking and watching the sunset...

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Old May 17, 2009, 11:54 PM
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((((((((((((( Phoenix7 )))))))))))))))

*sits down with you*
*offers wine*
*offers bread*
*offers cheese*
*offers sliced fruits and grapes*
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~ Moriah Conquering Wind ~

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
begin transmission
11.30.64 heh.finale (02) -111 11.22.63 jpl 156 435 666/93 abaddon temple annihilation bridge
rev10 priestess 98 world-soul choronzon reversal babalon fallen forfeiture 01. unfinished sequence.
system compromised. code gray. retrieval and cycling initiated 11.28.08, 74 >> 75

end transmission
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

>> postcards from the abyss <<
Thanks for this!
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Old May 18, 2009, 12:56 AM
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Old May 18, 2009, 03:04 AM
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thankyou everyone
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts
its how many times you get back up!
Will someone sit with me....
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )

When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet
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Old May 25, 2009, 07:32 AM
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Old May 25, 2009, 08:14 AM
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Thanks Fuzzybear -you found me where i was hiding ...
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts
its how many times you get back up!
Will someone sit with me....
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )

When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet
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Old May 29, 2009, 10:54 PM
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I will always support you. I hope we can get through these hard times together. Beleave youself!(相信你自己,你是好样的!)
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Old May 29, 2009, 11:46 PM
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thanks zhimin ji

I have made contact with an old T of mine and he is helping me - the SI urges are bad today but I promised T I wouldnt so I wont hope I can hold out -

old T is now my T for the next 11 sessions so I will be ok till then he is a great T and I actually think he cares about me - dont know why he would - but I think he does

- I appreciate everyone who sat or is sitting with me - I am still hiding till I can cope again - but thankyou
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts
its how many times you get back up!
Will someone sit with me....
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )

When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet
Thanks for this!
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Old May 30, 2009, 12:13 AM
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Sure. I would be happy to sit with you.

And we can
just

be.
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Old May 30, 2009, 04:39 AM
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Thanks Sky dancer, I promised my T that I woldnt SI but it is so hard - I have to hold out - have to - have to - I am so anxious and afraid...... I have my T and he is brilliant - but he is not here - and im afraid - its very dark where i am.... will someone hold hands with me please ... or lend me a hug to hide in till the darkness passes..........
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts
its how many times you get back up!
Will someone sit with me....
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )

When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet
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Old May 30, 2009, 09:40 AM
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as long as you want

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Old May 30, 2009, 10:24 AM
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My hand and heart are there for you...
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