My stressfull weekend!!!

It all started on Friday. We went out to my aunts house to have dinner because my aunt cathy and her two kids were coming out. It was't really bad emotionally until about 8pm when most everyone was gone and thats when I just started feeling like crying for no reason and felt really overwhelmed and a lot of anxiety. The anxiety level was high and lasted like 3 hours and I could not get rid of the anxiety. For the past week I think I have been having a hard time sleeping. I would wake up multiple times a night and sleep in late. On Saturday I mostly slept all day. I did get a few things done that day cleaning and stuff. My niece nadija spent the night and I just got so overwhelmed and my anxiety level rose. As with any person that I interact with my anxiety rises and I get overwhelmed easiy. On Sunday I did better. I slept most of the afternoon. I just seem to sleep a lot. Dinner with my sister in law went well and right now nothing much is going on except writing this and I feel like crying and overwhelmed. I get tearful and overwhelming a lot more these days.

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I cried off my voluntary work today because I was overwhelmed and just couldn't face it... it makes me feel awful that I'm so unreliable, but then sometimes we need to withdraw just to gain some space and calm down.

If you need to sleep then sleep. You'll feel a bit better soon, and then you can start challenging yourself, but for the time being, don't feel bad.

My emotions are all over the place today. I had my pdoc appointment today and she said that my mood is better which I agree except she says my thoughts are psycotic which I total agree with because my thoughts are all over the place. I was driving to go bowl with an organization I belong with and it took me like 20 minutes to go 1 mile because the right lane was merging which I didn't know of. When I got to the bowling alley I just felt so emotional and wanting to cry. I bought food that I should not of because I was not hungry. My mind was not on bowling but other things so I just did not bowl well. I wanted to text my pdoc but I can't every time I have an odd emotion that I can't control. We bowled three games my scores were 51-73-55 which wasn't bad but my head wasn't in it. I just hope I can hold it all together until I see her again on Wednesday.