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About a therapist, its not something I reaaaally need. I mean, would be nice and handy, but... would be just to have someone to talk, but I dont have problems to be resolved, at least psychiligically. My big problem now is money. Then... everything is ok. I know I handle an odd personality, but... its like a matter of tastes. I like apple flavour and I dont like carrota, lets say... most peopie taste like carrots to me (hahaha). Why you lie to your therapist ? I know some people do that but I dont get it. Long time ago I did some therapy sessions and I had no problem to tell everything in great details to my therapist. Actually, this is part of my "odd personality", I LOVE to tell to someone else, specially a psychologist (because handle this information with knowledge meaning have a bigger understanding depth) what I think in great details, its almost like a kink to me, I know sounds strange, in part is because I really have the need to tell to someone about the things have happened in my life. |
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I don't feel like therapy is helpful but I have to do it because I'm trying to get SSDI but I'm always on the verge of quitting because I feel like all therapists are exactly the same and it's a waste of time. If I could hold down a job I def wouldn't even be in therapy. I lie to them because they all say the same thing over and over. For example, I told my therapist I really like to think about kidnapping people I hate then psychologically torturing them until they starve to death. I felt I had to be extra clear that I had no intentions of acting on these thoughts and the only thing she says is....well if you aren't going to act on them, then they're just thoughts and you're safe and you're so brave. Like omg gag me can't we even talk about the details?! She didn't even ask how much time I spend thinking about it, which is kind of obsessive sometimes. Anyway, she says the same dang thing to everything I say, that I have to use DBT skills so I just lie and avoid telling her stuff and just tell her what she wants to hear. I have a new therapist starting this week and I'm sure she'll be just as cookie-cutter as the rest. The majority of people are carrots BLANDDDDDDD! lol __________________ Just keep swimming I have BPD or Autism or both, we may never know, the focus is always the symptoms, not the diagnosis |
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But the kidnapping thing... If that wasnt a lie, mmm... dont do it. Hehe, couldnt stop to tell you. I would love if forums give me at least some laugh by reading posts of others, but frankly, just bores me , sooo much. I read topics, and I HATE people with "crazy problems", like "Im obsessed with a TV chatacter, what do i do ?" (Sorry if u have this, hope not). Its like "I deal with not having money, and your problems is a TV character ?". I know some people are just out of reality and should have empathy, but its like "well, he is out of reality ? Does have a cure ? No. Ok, next case". Hope ur next therapist be better. |
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I think my BPD turned into Schizoid at this point though because I used to care what people think about me and I used to want friends, now I really don't care at all and I despise socializing in person. I don't have social anxiety at all I just don't care about other people that aren't my very closest family members but I avoid them too. Maybe it is bitterness like you said or maybe it's a mental health issue I feel like we may never know because therapists only want you to use the skills they don't care if you feel better they just care that you don't bother other people. I read that Schizoid PD is super rare so I think it would be pretty hard to get that diagnosis, in general, it seems most therapists don't have experience with it so they probably couldn't even recognize it if it slapped em in the face lol I guess what I want to get out of therapy is help trying to find a job where people don't talk to me as much as possible. I need to find a way to get steady money because I'm hungry and can't afford food. My husband doesn't make much money so I try to save the food for him because he's bigger than me and he needs it more since he works. I'd rather have a house to live in than food on the table every day so our money goes to rent first and whatever is left over we use for food or get something from the food bank but I don't like to take a lot from the food bank because I know there are people who have it worse than me. __________________ Just keep swimming I have BPD or Autism or both, we may never know, the focus is always the symptoms, not the diagnosis |
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