[cydniey]

problems at home have led to a devastating depression that is slowly turning into rage, i can feel an episode coming on.

i'm compliant with my meds and to keep the peace in my house, i hide my symptoms. but i'm afraid that won't be enough.

i feel like i'm ready to blow. i'm losing time, hearing the voices distinguish themseves and seeing the shadow people with more and more frequency. i'm also convinced my husband is out to get me, but that may just be the case, i'm not sure. we're having problems that i am trying not to exacerbate.

what do i do? since i know it's coming can i stop it?

[swimmom]

My husband and I have recently gone through some major problems (we're now in counseling), part of which were due to me hiding things about what was really going on with me. Try to gain the support of your husband. It was like a burden was lifted off me when I got honest with him. Also, I would contact my pdoc. He might be able to make a temporary med change to stop this. If u do nothing, it's going to hit sooner or later. Hope this helps a bit.

[WLFTW]

I, too see shadow people with some regularity. I also have anger issues.

I would talk to your doctor as soon as possible and tell him or her exactly what you said here and ask for help.

A lot of doctors don't like to prescribe Ativan. In my case, when I'm furiously enraged, ativan will absolutely calm me down... If I wanted to, I could go to a regular ER and ask for a shot of Ativan and they will oblige. At least they've done so in the past. It would be better to have some on hand though.

I haven't had anger issues for the last two years or so, thankfully. I wish I could tell you how that happened...my best guess is that the cocktail I'm on is helping.