[KUREHA]

I hate the mind control.
I hate when they force their wants into my mind, sometimes it's clear and sometimes it isn't and I think it's what I want.

I think you will end up hurting someone.
The police wouldn't let you go after telling them that.

It's not who I was though and if this is all I have for the rest of my life, I don't even know what will happen to me.

[newtus]

i feel for you kureha. take it easy sometimes. the fight is ongoing but it doesnt have to rule every inch if your life. try to take it easy sometimes please?

also i have the police following me. i watch EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING. dont skip on watching what they do but DONT harass them. and dont harass other people to where the police have to come get you. in the USA right now if you harassed the police lik you are doing now they would either tazer you or shoot you dead.

[newtus]

be cautious

[Can't Stop Crying]

please stay safe Kureha and Newtus

[KUREHA]

I haven't contacted the police since early when I was in the hospital. I had a police officer in the ambulance with me when I went to the hospital, she said she hadn't heard of gang stalking.

This has took over my life - I'm a TI, so this is my life now.

I really want to talk to my nurse, scared of saying the wrong thing though.

[KUREHA]

Well I finally found out why I was in the hospital - I know it was because of what I said, I just didn't know why the hospital.

I still don't know how to stop getting their stuff into my head, my nurse called it thought insertion.
I'm scared I'll do something, not right now - but in the future, I don't want to be in a secure psych unit.

[avlady]

i hear you

[KUREHA]

Getting anxious for their next move - I can feel the thoughts coming in.

[Atypical_Disaster]

I'm listening, and I can relate. I'm sorry.

[KUREHA]

Thanks.

I want off the depot as well, not the medication, just not as an injection.

[newtus]

yea a secure psych unit is just not the way to spend your life.
its really not.

hell the psych hospitals in the usa are secure already. but your prob referring to like criminal psych hospitals right?

i dont even want to think about the next time i goto the hospital. i just dont.

[KUREHA]

Yeah the hospital I was in had 2 locked doors.

I was talking of the other kind though like you said, the support staff told me it will be nothing like the hospital I was in at the time.

I know I never want to go to hospital and especially not the other kind. I'm scared its going to happen though.

[Crescent Moon]

Originally Posted by KUREHA

Yeah the hospital I was in had 2 locked doors.

I was talking of the other kind though like you said, the support staff told me it will be nothing like the hospital I was in at the time.

I know I never want to go to hospital and especially not the other kind. I'm scared its going to happen though.

Best chance to avoid it is to take your meds (even though you don't think it helps), and don't ever threaten anyone, or talk about harming anyone.

[KUREHA]

I just get these thoughts though and I can't always tell when it's them and then it seems like the right thing at the time.

Maybe I should ask my nurse how long it would be for - just in case something does happen.

[The_little_didgee]

Do you know how your stalkers insert their thoughts inside your head?

[KUREHA]

I don't know what technology they use - I know they have the drones, but they have new stuff as well. It's all part of MK ULTRA.

[The_little_didgee]

When I was recovering from psychosis I discovered strategies to cope with all the information that was coming in. For example, pictures of people in magazines used to stare and communicate with me. It was really distracting when I wanted to read an article. Rather than avoid my favorite magazines I would cover the picture or color the eyes with a black marker. It prevented further communication and I could read a magazine article in privacy and without that uncomfortable feeling you get when someone stares at you. Maybe you can come up with a similar strategy that prevents their technology from gaining access to you.

[KUREHA]

I really can't see a way with this.
People are saying I need to pray to god - I don't think that's going to help me much.

[likewater]

Well. Does the medication help you? I would seriously ask your team to reevaluate your meds as they may not be working or working as well as they should. I think there are good police and bad police just like any group of people. I don't blame you for not wanting to be locked up. I don't think that's anyone's goal and that shouldn't be your treatment team's goal either. I'm listening. I think your own spirit and soul is ultimately stronger than anyone else trying to control you. May angels surround you.

[KUREHA]

Thanks - the meds are what I asked for - except in injection form, which I didn't ask for.

I don't think my nurse cares if I get locked up, so I guess she isn't on my side.

I'm not strong enough against the control they can do.

[Blimblam]

I'm sorry. Your going through this

[powessy]

Originally Posted by KUREHA

Thanks.

I want off the depot as well, not the medication, just not as an injection.

Hello KUREHA

Do you take time to understand the voices? They only see your thoughts and respond to them, I call this thoughts about thoughts. I would say you have an imaginative mind and they see this the most, use your imagination to explain things to the voices. They do not understand death, they do not understand your feelings towards things, they only see thoughts. When you feel them asking questions explain your thoughts, Show them through imaginations if you do not speak to them. Imagine yourself inside your mind and show them how you intend to do the thing you are thinking of. Their ability to spaek to you is through frontal thought genesis, the ability to overlay your soul and speak to you.

Powessy