I feel sad. I feel I am going to be persecuted. I feel I'm innocent of a capital crime. I mis speak sometimes, but never with malicious intent. Some times I may become suspicious about someones intentions, but never with deadly force. I just inquire for more info. I feel I'm mal adapted to this world these days. I feel I need to accept this and adapt. If I feel shame or guilt or both, about this, it will not change my perceived situation. I am glad I am adapted enough to work and be supportive of some, anyway. I need to accept I, most likely, will not receive the support I crave. It is difficult to let go of this "need." I can only try.

[lil-angel-wings]

if you want to be heard the first thing you need to learn is to listen

I'm still needy. It is embarassing but thankfully, I've got no one to impress. I'll never be impressive again, but I'm ok with that. I found when I had success in the past, it led to more troubles than the success was worth. People became mean and jealous. They would make cruel and heartless jokes. I prefer, now, being on the near bottom rung of america.. I wouldn't survive the upper or middle classes. They seem to hate people like me, whatever that means. So my life is based on survival, that works for me. I can't survive anywhere but near or at the bottom of our society.

[lil-angel-wings]

Originally Posted by brookwest

I feel sad.

I need to accept I, most likely, will not receive the support I crave. It is difficult to let go of this "need." I can only try.

perhaps you are looking at the worng person and the wrong place for what you are craving...

[RunningEagleRuns]

Good luck. Life will get better in time.

i'm feeling empty and alone. I attended a support group yesterday, i felt shunned. It is still hurting. I must look like someone to avoid and ridicule. I'm always shunned and ridiculed. I guess I need to don my equipment for battle, I sense hostilities.

[costello]

Originally Posted by brookwest

i'm feeling empty and alone. I attended a support group yesterday, i felt shunned. It is still hurting. I must look like someone to avoid and ridicule. I'm always shunned and ridiculed. I guess I need to don my equipment for battle, I sense hostilities.

Maybe you're imagining it. Or maybe you need a different support group.

I feel better today. I am seeing my psychiatrist in an hour or so. I've had meds, but have missed a couple appointments with my psychiatrist. I am glad to meet with him. He seems friendly.

[lil-angel-wings]

I am finding that the more I stop looking at others for assurance that I am worth while the more I actually see my value .. My value does not come from what the people around me give but in what I give to the people around me.

You seem to be a diligent poster lil angel. Thank you for your concern. You are helpful.