[shoez]

I never feel alone, its not alwys scary not alweays scary.

Smtimes scary.

Sometimes not.

Sometimes I delete all stuff from computer cuz i think somebodys gonna search my stuff, and say im bad and hurt me.
Even if its not bad.
like I took off something like some happy music I like, because i thot somebody might see it and say that it was stupid or bad, and i was scared of getting ni trouble, cuz even if its not bad, maybe makes people mad if they dont like happy music

anybody esle feel like this

does it mean im crazy/bad.
how do i stop

thnks

[shoez]

nvm wish I didn't post this.

[Trippin2.0]

You're not crazy or bad shoez

[RunningEagleRuns]

good luck

[shoez]

thnk u guys. ...kidna embarassed i posted that

[Trippin2.0]

Please don't be embarassed, nobody is judging you, PC is safe for sharing.
Take care.XOXO

[Midnightmoon]

YES! Ifeel like that all the time. I waste so much time erasing stuff and covering stuff up because I feel like someone can find something they can use against me. I'm a good person. I know I am. When I am rational and clear headed I know that no one is against me or out to get me (this is rare).

My blinds and curtains are always shut tight

I have conversations with friends and I annoy them with my paranoia. I ask them over and over and over if so and so is after me or going to get me and they get really upset with me and I loose my friends over it.

I know how hard it is to post on here. Even posting this makes me feel like someone is going to get me. The wrong person is going to see this and snap everything out from under my feet and my life will come crashing down. I try to think that even if that did happen, I could handle picking up the pieces of my life again.

I really understand being embarrassed, don't be, I am glad you are saying something. I am glad I found this site so I know I am not alone in these feelings.

[Galymia]

What I do is just stay in the house and refuse to leave. Everyone tells me that it's a bad thing to do, but I don't see how. It keeps me from having to be around people and smell that they are staring at me. They always give off a metallic odor and it grosses me out. They try to get into my head when they stare, so I wear hats to keep them from it.

I guess since it's supposedly a bad thing to never leave the house, maybe you shouldn't do it. I feel safe enough saying things on here since everyone is on the computer and can't see me. Just be careful, though.

[shoez]

sometimes I dont want to leave the hosue either...but next thing I know I'm out of the house and afraid.

[newtus]

Originally Posted by shoez

sometimes I dont want to leave the hosue either...but next thing I know I'm out of the house and afraid.

same
thing next think i know.
IM IN THE HOSPITAL

[insideout]

don't be embarrassed. I once (or twice) deleted everything in the midst of a paranoid psychosis... was convinced it was all a conspiracy... spychiatry of sorts.
just be yourself. you are safe under the cloak of your alias.

[shoez]

Im always thinking people want to track my stuff and crap...
its so annoying.

-_-

[insideout]

it's a realistic fear if you have someone in your life who has done something to make you think they want to track your data to use it against you... but how likely are they to know it's you and what do you have to lose? and THEY would be the ones in trouble for stalking you so everything the "had" on you would be useless to them.
just sayin.... (I am the SAME WAY as you... but my mother IS a stalker and out to get me or get something negative to use against me.)