Worried Ill destroy something..

like what?

i fear itll come out of my mouth even though i didnt do a thing. like holding back the compulsion to blurt it out

One time I went downtown, I'm not sure why, but it was important at the time. I took the bus, even though I had a car at the time. I don't remember what I was doing for awhile, then I realized I had blood on my arms and hands and on the front of my shirt. I walked up to a police car and reported that I had just killed someone, and that I needed to be arrested.
I was adamant that they would find a body at the corner of Main and Third St. behind the evergreen bushes. They handcuffed me but also called me an ambulance because I was hurt. Third and Main don't intersect, but I insisted that they check everywhere because I was certain I had killed or hurt someone.
The blood was all mine though. They told me that from my injuries I had likely fallen from a low height, like over an embankment or off a one story building. This fits because I do have a tendency to climb things. I didn't get in any trouble with the police because they thought I was just behaving oddly due to banging my head. Plus they never found any bodies or anyone injured in the area.

wow. i wonder how they treat cases like that...

What do you mean??

was that a bad post to make? should i delete it?

i mean i wonder how the police treat cases in which a mentally ill person says they did something bad when they didnt

in my case it was just a false alarm. the same as if somebody calls in gunshots and it turns out to be fireworks. in other sorts of cases when people confess to crimes they didn't do, they are released when there proves to be no evidence that they did, as well as evidence that they did not, do the crime.

The police don't normally take confessions seriously unless there's corroborating evidence. In fact, they can't -- no good prosecutor would make a charge against somebody with no proof that a crime had even been committed. That runs totally contrary to how criminal law works. You don't make charges for crimes that never happened.
They shouldn't theoretically make a charge even when a crime HAS been committed on confession evidence alone, but they often do because we lawyers suck like that.

i thought it was interesting..

were you psychotic?

i don't know if it got started with me being psychotic, or if it was part of a dissociative episode of some kind, because i still don't remember what was going on in the beginning. i think i was definitely psychotic while trying to explain to police, and insisting they go looking for a body.