[newtus]

im sitting here drinking wine and 10 minutes into it...BAM...im hearing external voices. its getting bad. theres this man laughing. and this woman telling me what i should do.

mistake im sure.
i always forget what happens when i drink. i dont drink often. but a year into my 21st year of life im already drinking more and more. not in one sitting but overall i mean.

my parents think i have been depressed lately.
i said no. but oh well. alone....drinking...not leaving the house......
thats not necessarily depression right?
BUT i did cry today when i had this vision of my dad dying and
this bleak look into the future....

oh well.

[costello]

We all make mistakes. Just lay off the wine, ok?

[Wayfarer25]

Depression can be sneaky. Sometimes it's others who notice it first. Apparently, as I've been told, you can still be depressed without feeling sad. So maybe you are. Or maybe not. I'm not there to judge. But I guess it's all in how you feel rather than appearances others might see.

[newtus]

Originally Posted by Wayfarer25

Apparently, as I've been told, you can still be depressed without feeling sad. .

see thats total BS. if thats true. every single person person in the USA should have a mental illness of at least depression.

seriously though i dont feel depressed. but i feel apathetic...and unmotivated. but im not ruling it out either im just saying how i feel.

ugh i hate psychiatry it has the BIGGEST hold on me than anything ive ever encountered in my life.

[newtus]

Originally Posted by costello

We all make mistakes. Just lay off the wine, ok?

ill try. thats hard right now...

[RunningEagleRuns]

Originally Posted by newtus

see thats total BS. if thats true. every single person person in the USA should have a mental illness of at least depression.

seriously though i dont feel depressed. but i feel apathetic...and unmotivated. but im not ruling it out either im just saying how i feel.

ugh i hate psychiatry it has the BIGGEST hold on me than anything ive ever encountered in my life.

i know what you mean about how psychiatry's got a hold on you.. life is tough.

[fishsandwich]

Originally Posted by newtus

see thats total BS. if thats true. every single person person in the USA should have a mental illness of at least depression.
.

I don't doubt that every person in the USA *would* have a mental illness of at least depression, if you could heard them all before psychiatrists Those drugs are too lucrative to think anything other would happen!

[Wayfarer25]

Originally Posted by newtus

see thats total BS. if thats true. every single person person in the USA should have a mental illness of at least depression

hey, i agree with you. i was just saying that's what i was told. and it is total BS. psychiatry, it seems, wants no one to be "normal". i mean, what is normal anyway? is anyone truly normal? i highly doubt it.

one psychiatrist whom i admire somewhat called most of the US population the "worried well" meaning they aren't really sick, don't need a psychiatrist, and don't need therapy, but rather just a better way to deal with the regular ups and downs of life. he made this point in regards to how the mental health system is clogged up with these "worried well" people and those who are really sick can't get appointments for weeks or months because of it.

i believe that there are some psychiatrists out there who are trying their best to help those that truly need it. but i think the majority of the docs are greedy slime bags, hence why you see all these lawsuits coming down from major drug manufacturers naming all the docs these companies paid off for crap research. as a whole, the US mental health system is fundamentally broken. it needs a major overhaul in my opinion.

[Trippin2.0]

'It is human to err...' maybe leave yourself a detailed description of the effect alcohol has on you, and that way you have a point of reference when you do find yourself reaching for a bottle...

[newtus]

Originally Posted by Wayfarer25

i believe that there are some psychiatrists out there who are trying their best to help those that truly need it. but i think the majority of the docs are greedy slime bags, hence why you see all these lawsuits coming down from major drug manufacturers naming all the docs these companies paid off for crap research. as a whole, the US mental health system is fundamentally broken. it needs a major overhaul in my opinion.

your not kidding.

it reminds me when i was in the hospital a few weeks ago and there was this severely severly mentally ill woman in her 70s that i had to share a room with. (i say had because i wouldnt have minded so much if she didnt get up in the middle of the night to yell in the mirror at 2-3AM. every night and day.)
but anyway she had schizophrenia and she asking me where do i think they keep people who are disfigured by nature at. i said idk. she told me they she thinks they keep them in a hole in the ground because doctors are too greedy to help them. basically she was saying that doctors all they want is money. i actually totally agreed with her except for the hole in the ground.

[Wayfarer25]

that's my biggest issue with doctors. any doctors really, doesn't matter what profession they're in. the ones that treat you like a paycheck are impossible for me to deal with. i'm lucky to have a primary care doc that listens and treats me like a person. psych doc? jury is still out on this one. hard to tell during a med check.

[likewater]

i think i have the OPPOSITE problem. i'm totally falling apart after my brther dies on the 13th ans my bfriend thinks im fine. he expects me to go back to work. i'm totally retraumatized. can barely shower. keep switching alters. the one that likes to hurt me keeps coming out. had it in lockdown but now cant seem to put it back. call it an it because dont know if it is a him or her. dont tell him this part because dont want to scare the pants off him. i guess i should write in the dissasociation forum but made friends here when was dxed schizophrenic by mistake.