[WikidPissah]

Hi everyone. Sorry I don't post in this forum much. I have been off meds for several months, and feeling better physically and more alive and alert mentally. The sui crap has subsided significantly, and my self control has greatly increased. But those damn voices. Grrrrr.

I was referred to a trauma specialist that does IFS therapy...or parts therapy...not DID stuff. Anyhow, when she asks me about parts of me and what they think/say I don't know if she's referring to voices or what. Are they parts? Are they echos of the past? Are they federal agents listening in on me? UFO's? I have no freaking clue, I just know that if I ignore them it's better. I tried to explain them to her...but she's stupid.

Maybe T isn't a good thing for those of us whom hear things?

What do ya think?

Originally Posted by WikidPissah

Hi everyone. Sorry I don't post in this forum much. I have been off meds for several months, and feeling better physically and more alive and alert mentally. The sui crap has subsided significantly, and my self control has greatly increased. But those damn voices. Grrrrr.

I'm glad to hear that you've been doing better

Originally Posted by WikidPissah

I was referred to a trauma specialist that does IFS therapy...or parts therapy...not DID stuff. Anyhow, when she asks me about parts of me and what they think/say I don't know if she's referring to voices or what. Are they parts? Are they echos of the past? Are they federal agents listening in on me? UFO's? I have no freaking clue, I just know that if I ignore them it's better. I tried to explain them to her...but she's stupid.

I think what they mean by 'parts' is like the child you and the adult you etc, but I may be wrong. I remember them talking about IFS and parts in the psychotherapy forum a while ago so you could maybe search that to hear from people who've actually done it. Yeah I find that ignoring the voices is best, but there are people who advocate talking to your voices to find out where they come from. For example I think that my voices are a way to punish myself, and my strong 'delusional' (according to pdoc) guilt are both due to the fact that I still feel responsible for my Nan dying when I was little, even though logically I know it wasn't my fault. Maybe if you think that the government are spying on you, it's because you feel vulnerable for some reason, maybe because you're all alone or whatever. I'm just thinking out loud here.

I think that maybe having a think about the meaning in your life behind your voices and unusual thoughts could be helpful. I know my voices lost some of their power when I figured out why they were there. Just be careful not to get lost in them - I think that's where T could help.

Originally Posted by WikidPissah

Maybe T isn't a good thing for those of us whom hear things?

What do ya think?

I think that therapy is helpful for psychosis, but that it maybe needs to be done slightly differently. I know that there's CBT for psychosis which is supposed to be quite effective. I also know that I've always found it helpful to talk to someone impartial about how I'm feeling. I'm currently waiting to see if pdoc will refer me for more therapy, but he says that the meds have to work a bit first before it would be helpful for me.

All the best,

*Willow*

[WikidPissah]

Thank you Willow...you are always so kind and articulate in your responses...I respect that so much.

In my sanest moments, I believe the voices are from a significant trauma history. I do indeed get lost in them and give them a more current role in my life at times though. I don't think they are internal self parts. They are the voices of others, I am fairly certain of that. I recently read a really good narrative on voices:
http://theamericanscholar.org/living-with-voices/

I think I need to keep them in the background and not focus in on them. Therapists tend to want to question or speak with them, and it seldom helps. Not in an hour at least. Psychiatrists want to medicate and shut them up. It would be most helpful if there were a hearing voices type of network in my area. Speaking with someone who understands the chaos and terror they inflict would be great.

Thank you for that article. It was really interesting to read.

I'm sorry that there's no group in your area. I know it's not the same as IRL support, but you always have us here at PC whenever you need us

*Willow*