I told everyone. I told everyone about the asteroid. Maybe its them on their way to meet me to finalise my powers. Lots of small ones hit Russia, they were probably on their way here. The Russian military shot them down. Why? why would they do that to rocks. I thought the Russians were not with the Uk Government and now they are taking sides against me.

Its not this made up word psychosis. Its real. Does news reports lie? Okay maybe they do, but not this time. what time is it. look it up. I dont believe in coincidence. its real.

[faerie_moon_x]

I am trying not to think about the asteroid myself. It scares me.

[newtus]

i THOUGHT THEY SAID IT WOULD COMPLETELY MISS US.

oF COURSE news reports lie. ALL THAT TIME. its a fact.

the russians are inflitrating the usa as we speak.

Russia is far far away from the UK, so it couldn't have been for me. I mean how would they even expect me to get there! Bit stupid of them if its for me, making me watch the news and then expect me to go there, I mean I have had a message like that before, but it was for somewhere close to me, so I asked my friend (not a friend anymore, used me) to take me there. But I mean she cant drive me all the way there, so it cant be. I saw the video clip on the news and it looked like a rocket ship landing, but then I heard that the Russians SHOT it down. Oh come on, shoot down a rock, what the hell for, it must have been much more.

I know newtus, that the news lies, its all propaganda and misinformation, but if you read between the lines then sometimes there is a message and its easy to follow it. Its a trick they use.

[faerie_moon_x]

I tend to believe that math and science are pretty accurate. I'm spiritual, but also logical. So when it comes to science, especially mathematical science, I feel like they know what they are talking about. I just don't have a mind to wrap around how an asteroid that big can pass closer to earth than our satellites and not get sucked into to our gravity???

So, I'm trying not to think of it because.... well, it's beyond my small control in this world....

[newtus]

yea i know about that trick. i mainly use underground news sites anyway.

people think usa is far from russia because how maps are laid out. but if you go backwards and fly from california and backwards its just right across the ocean.

[faerie_moon_x]

I think actually Japan and China are blocking most of the US from Russia. I know in Alaska, though, it's very close to Russia. And once there was a land bridge there, milions of years ago. They say the Chinese ancestor and the Mayan ancestor are the same people, seperated by migration.

[newtus]

yea ive been looking into that.

they also say all of them are also connected to native americans. which explains how they look and their body shape. all the visual genetic stuff. idk much about science but i know a lot about history.

[faerie_moon_x]

I really enjoy the social sciences. I took a lot of anthropology, sociology, and psychology at school and studied theology on my own. It's very interesting to learn about people because people are so strange when you really think about it. We're the weird ones of the animal world, trying to look cool and tough.

[newtus]

i dropped out of psych class in college. i couldnt handle talking about mental illness when i have one thats the pendlement of all of em.

[faerie_moon_x]

See, I think I am oposite. I think I too more psych classes because I felt something was really wrong but no one would help me. So, I decided to learn it myself. And I was actually really good at it and loved it and wanted to become a research psychiatrist so I could help people. But, that didn't work out.

[newtus]

i was like that at one point.but when i actually got in the class it wasnt like what i thought inside myself. i couldnt handle talking about schiz and then people asking "what are the hallucinations like?". i couldnt handle sitting there and trying to keep a straight face. i felt like an undercover freak show. like i was the monkey that came to study the human habitat. couldnt do it.

[faerie_moon_x]

Well, I was in those classes first before I ever had any hallucinations and then in college when my hallucinations and delusions started. But here's the thing. I had no idea I was having delusions, even though I was studying them! I had no idea that what was happening to me (which I thought was 100% real,) was the exact thing I was wanting to help other people with. Like, they would talk about delusions in class and I'd be like, "That must be so terrible to live with," but I was living with it...

It's kind of surreal to think about that time....

[newtus]

makes sense.

ive dealt with psychosis since about 13. little earlier.
i remember when i was 9 i thought my parents were spying on me from an outpost in the downtown area.

i didnt really understand the basics of what was going on with me until 2 years ago when i was 20. many things i still truly dont understand about whats going on in my head so i just live with it even though it can be...torturous daily. i bend myself around and backwards for these voices and people. cause i dont understand the details of it.
i mean idk what they want me to do by giving me a pamphlet on schiz. i mean...they ALL say the same things. word for word. so i know the basics. psh...thats it they are dumb. i quit looking online for info its just too much stuff and just crap stuff.

When I was about 11 I had double pneumonia and almost died. I was in hospital for a long time, and its there on Halloween night I asked the nurse if it was real and if witches were real and she said no, but I didnt believe her. Next day when I sat on a chair in the lounge room I could taste what other people were eating! Not only that but I could feel textures. Like if you were walking past, I could feel what your jacket felt of but only if I was in that chair.

[faerie_moon_x]

Yeah when I was 8 years old I believed the kids in my class had installed a closed circuit security system in my bathroom at home. I believed they had a secret clubhouse and would gather there to watch me go to the bathroom and make fun of me. Like, I had huge anxiety for years, probably into my early teens, about the "cameras" in my bathroom (which obviously didn't exist.) Of course you tell people this, and they just say "oh little kids have good imaginations." So, sure, whatever. I just know I really believed it and that's the first thing I can really pinpoint in this area.