Ok, so I am getting sick and tired of every doctor telling me something different. Why can't they diagnose me with something so I can figure out myself with medications and care for that diagnoses. I have been jumping around diagnoses for over four years now and I am sick of it!

Every since I was very, very young, I have been hearing voices. I have four different voices (The Teacher, the young innocent girl, the older protective male, and the Gossip Girls). The Teacher I have been hearing since I can remember and the voices have progressively gotten worse. I will not only hear the Teacher now but the Gossip Girls who talk down to me and tell me to kill myself. It is terrifying. The other two voices I only hear when I am in deep deep psychosis.

I am also plagued with horrible paranoia. It is awful! There is always someone watching me, with me. It changes everything about myself, how I dress, how I walk, how I eat, even how I breathe because I am scared they will attack me and hurt me if I don't. The list of stuff like this continues on forever and never seems to end or go away.

Doctors are too afraid to diagnose me with anything major (schizophrenia) because they are scared it will ruin my life. I highly doubt that and also they say I am too "normal". Since when does that call changes to a diagnosis. It is what it is!

I just want to figure out a diagnoses because it will help me when I need med changes or when I switch doctors because I will be able to tell them what I have so they can jump right in rather then having to do it all over again.

What do y'all think!? I need some help!

[faerie_moon_x]

There are a lot of diagnosises that have paranoia and even hallucinations and delusions. I think in the medical field "schizophrenia" is the "big one" type diagnosis. Like, they want to be really careful with diagnosis, because actually it is a big deal diagnosis. I mean, all MIs have their stigma. But, for example, the stigma of ADD is not the same as the stigma for depression which is not the same as the stigma for bipolar.

And sz is a lot more than just hallucinations and paranoia. You say your issues are effecting how youd dress and eat? How so? Also there are cognitive issues that go along with sz like disorganized thought and speech patterns, etc. There's a lot to schizophrenia. And I think they want to be careful diagnosing it.

I don't have schizophrenia dx. I am bipolar NOS with possible psychotic features and ultradian cycling. But, I do have hallucinations and paranoia and at times it has effected me for long periods, and other times it barely effects me at all... So, I'm not fully diagnosied, because right now I don't have a psychiatrist.

[newtus]

schizophrenia is actually a very big deal.

once it goes on your charts its a big deal. and once people find out its a very big deal.

i wont go into that really though because even if you dont want it to it will become a big deal. too much to cover really.

but yea dark heart is right.
theres a lot more to it than psychosis. theres cognitive and negative issues.

hm idk
like for example - thats my dx. one reason besides psychosis is that i dont shower for months at a time. and other hygiene issues. and doctors said that was one of the many things. i mean that can be a side effect of psychosis - so to speak but its also a negative symptom issue.

thats just an example that doesnt always include psychosis.

just trying to help. idk how old you are.

I guess I never really thought about how big the diagnoses is. I just want to know so I have an explanation.

[faerie_moon_x]

My advice it's better to want to make sure your doctors are really working with you and learning your symptoms instead of slapping you with a Dx that can follow you forever. One stigma of mental illness is "over diagnosis," which is annoying because those of us with actual problems get treated like we're fakers.

I can sort of see what you mean. I have had to think about this one, but I asked my mum and she read this and she says that how can someone start getting better if they dont know what it is they should be working from. Like im not saying there is anything wrong with you, to me you are perfect, but obviosuly if someone feels they are not well, then they want to know what is wrong with them, so they can start a plan to make themselves better.

Being left in limbo land is not good.