[brokenthoughts]

Hi, I'm nikki, I just joined a few minutes ago...

I'm having alot of trouble determening my mental health. alot of times I think I'm going crazy, and sometimes I think im over reacting, but I need some help.

I will see or hear things and not be sure if they are real or not. if I'm around a group of people I may suddenly get very paranoid and think they all think I'm a joke, and that the whole school thinks that way, too. And I'll walk down the hall with the feeling that everyone is staring at me and talking about me.

My friend and I were sitting in a car a few weeks ago, and he told me that he was imagenary and just a hillucination. I asked, well, how did we get here? this is your car, and you were driving. he answered that I was the one that was driving it, and that it was a neighbor's car. then he cme up with the possibility that I walked here, and I'm not even in a car, or just sat in a car already parked here.

him being imaginary is pretty possible. if either one of died, the other one would probably never know unless it was on the news or something. I don't know anyone he knows, and he doesn't know anyone I know.

So now I'm questioning everything I see and wondering if my best friend is even real. I feel like I'm losing my mind. I have no idea what's going on. I'm not attached to anything, and I feel like I'm being left out of my own life.

I am going to therapy, but when ever I go in, my mind goes blank and I can't talk about nything that I wanted to.

pleasehelp if you can... tell me what you think about all this...

[January]

Welcome Nikki,

We're glad you found us. Before you go to therapy, write down what you want to say and then either use it to help yourself remember or hand it to your pdoc or t. It really works for me.

Cheers!

Jan

[27untamed]

i too have a friend like that !here name is sarha!my other voices i never see or do they have voices but sarha has made herself very real to me at time i dont know what to do about it but friday i went to the doc and she up'ed my med's and said it was all in my head.but sometimes i wonder if sarha isn't a part of me!you know a dule personality or something like that,she always know what iam going to do or say before i do or say it.i total relate to you and know exactly what your going through,but all i know is that you really need to be totally open with your doctor so your med' s are right .if you have any more questions about me or sarha please feel free to ask!

[LittleMilly]

welcome nikkib
im glad you found us...
i've got schizophrenia and i hear voices so if you ever want to chat feel free too email me.

Milly

[brokenthoughts]

Hey, thanks, all of you

[ovidblue]

I get similar things, but I know I am real for sure, wouldnt be so damn miserable if I wasnt!

[tapasia]

Definitely write stuff down. I always forget what I want to tell the doc when I'm there. Probably because I forget to write it down...

[gwenh]

Hey. I'm new too. I feel the same way. YOu should know that there are other people going through the same thing. I have become so parinoid that sometimes I pinch myself until it bleeds because I think I'm in an imaginary world. How do you deal with it??

[brokenthoughts]

thanks for the support, guys.
I had a bit of an episode yesterday...
it wasn't very happy, but it didn't last too-too long.
I think I was just up too long, and watching it change from night to day when I'm used to being up at night kind of triggers it, I think.
I'm doing pretty well today though.
again, thank you all.

[Piper]

I am new here today.
Also I have some trouble with what is reality. <font color="blue"> </font>