[brokenthoughts]

a few days ago I had a huge hillucination...
for about 8 hours I was drawing the same picture trying to ferfect it, the whole time I was swating at smoke and flies that weren't there. they only thing that broughtme out of that was my friend calling. I thought it was about 11 in the morning, but he told me it was 3 in the afternoon and argued it with him untill I looked at the clock. we hung up, after I agreed to go to sleep. he said I was acting really stange on the phone (which I guess I was, I was really delusional). so while I was on my bed, I looked at my sheet. it started to jump. it looked like there was a giant heart underneath it. so I patted it down and looked underneath to make sure there was nothing there to make it do that, but when I looked at it, it was still pumping. then I saw a spiderweb that had a huge spider in it. the spider turned into a wasp that was shooting out hundreds of stingers in every direction. the wasp soon turned into buddha, who did karate moves for me for about 15 minutes. then I spotted this shadow on my wall that was dancing. I started laughing and talking to it, even conversing with it on which song it wanted to dance to. this when on for about 30 to 45 minutes, untill it stopped dancing. I asked what was wrong and it said it was tired. I told it I understood. I looked back at my sheet, which was by this time crawling with millions of little bugs. the shape of the design looked like goggles and I heard a baby cry, so I thought a man with a mask who had kidnapped a baby was in my room, hiding in my closet. I called my friend (the one who told me what time it was and that I should go to sleep) and he was trying to calm me down. I dont remember the conversation, but after we hung up I went to take a shower. everything was okay untill I saw bugs crawling out of my hair. I finished the shower and went to bed. my parents woke me up about an hour later for dinner and I was dripping with sweat, and it wasn't hot in my room. I told them I didnt feel good, and that I needed to sleep. (I was still seeing things). I dont even remember how long ago that was. but from then untill about 2 days ago, I thought the world was ending. I had all the theories and thoughts that i'd tell to anyone who would listen. honestly, I thought I was an indigo child or something. so I read religious books and laughed for no appearent reason because I thought I'd found the meaning of life, and that this generation would be the last, and we were all going to heaven. I also spent all that time looking for my imagenary friend.
today, I'm out of all that. I still feel a little apart from reality, but feeling better. not as happy, but a little more sane. it does make me question the whole world ending thing. it was funny how I was completely happy during the delusion. I think I sort of freaked people out with my random laughing spells, though.
... just a story I thought I'd share.

[omegapool]

Very glad to hear your feeling better today.Your other post said you had smoked pot before.Is it possible you might of done other drugs that could cause your hallucinations?
Sometimes people have been known to lace the pot with other drugs.Would mostly encourage you to get professional help if possible,what I have been reading from this web site it seems meds do actually help if given the right prescriptions.

[Eleora]

If it happens again, you should probably seek immediate care at the hospital. Hallucinations and delusions can be extremely scary and sometimes put weird ideas in your head that are harmful to yourself or others.

If you see a doctor about psychiatric issues, you should tell him/her about this as soon as possible. If you don't have a doctor, I'd suggest getting one soon.

[brokenthoughts]

I've done other drugs before, but this day I hadn't done any heavy drugs. I did take adderall the night before, but that's it. I'm getting transfered from my counselor to a psychiatrist (after taking some sort of test) and so I haven't been able to talk about anything. I haven't been to a session in atleast two or three months.

If this was me I would be calling the counselor saying what's the hold up on transferring to the psychiatrist. many people see a therapist and a psychiatrist so there shouldn't be a problem of the counselor still seeing you during the transition process. in fact USA therapists go through the transition process WITH their clients not leave them hanging. They help them choose a few and then go with them to check them out and then the present therapist attends some sessions with the client with the professional of choice a few times to make sure the two are a match.

There is also many crsis centers and hot lines you can call when you get like this so you don't have to go through this alone and also the next time it gets this severe you may want to consider ER help. that way you don't accidentally injure yourself in trying to fight your way through it alone.

[Sarah116]

I can understand how you feel, it happens to me very often, I most recently felt aliens behind me and at night and for most of the day wear a hat so they can't mess with my thoughts or hear them. then I saw a witch in the window who was trying to do spells on me then I keep seeing eyes and have a feeling that certain people know what i am thinking or are spying on me. I also heard hissing voices and voices in the walls. Good luck and be careful!

[January]

((((((((( Brokenthoughts ))))))))))))

I'm so glad you're feeling better.

Jan

[goldmaiden]

I so know what this feels like. I've been delusional. At first i thought i was in heaven, surrounded by the living, the dead and angels and gods. Then i thought i was telepathic and received special messages about people's thoughts.

Hope you get better soon!

[brokenthoughts]

I am going back to my counselor now, and they are trying to find me a psychiatrist. I have only been having very acute episodes that only last for a day or so, though most of these are thinking people are in my house and that the FBI is outside.
but other than that, I've been doing pretty well.
I'm just glad I'm going back to my counselor.
thanks for you'r support I really appreciate it