Out of my mind scared! (felt like posting it)

Hi I felt a reason to post this, I am scared out of my mind and cannot seem to think clearly sometimes and . I feel funny and the aliens are here again i hear a hat to protect my thoughts! I keep hearing hissing and whispering voices. I know this is scary and freaky sort of odd but my Psychiatrist is haunting me! sometimes him and the voices get real violent and nasty they even . I am seeing things others cannot and sometimes they are just odd other times look real or vanish.
I am real scared! Has anyone ever had or have the same thing? What should I do!!??? I am going to see my Psychologist in the near future and am going to ask about medicine again but should I tell her all this!? I mean it is so hard and she will call me "crazy!" and all that stuff! What medicines? What do you think i have I am going to ask her that too. Is Solian in the USA now and does it work good? Thanks so much! - Scared Sarah

Yes I think you should tell your psychiatrist about this. The only way she can help you and possibly give you the right meds for you is if she knows what you are experiencing. Hiding the symptoms and what you are going through means she can't help you with these type of problems So please tell her and Hang in there.

Yes! I am feeling so much better I think it was a Psychotics episode or something. ANYWAY!!! Hi people!, I started a new group on Yahoo! It is a Schizo support group and the other one is for games. Please feel free to join! Really Feel free! There are also hundreds more, it is a really nice site. Hope to see you there!,
Sarah

http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/mindplanet/
That is my Schizo support one
http://games.groups.yahoo.com/group/rctmasters/
that is my RCT one
http://groups.yahoo.com/
That is the Group link

AWESOME!! - Yeah Yahoo can be good for some things..... w00t w00t!

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Sarah116 said: I am real scared! Has anyone ever had or have the same thing? What should I do!!???

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Learn to enjoy it! Transmutate terror into pleasure. Make the terror a source of erotic delight. Enter a delicious B&D dynamic with your Invisibles. Turn it into a religion, figure out who's got the power and worship them and get them to teach you the proper rituals for worshipping them so they will share that power with you.

The line between psychosis and gnosis can be thin and fuzzy at times, but the boundary between the two is a transparent membrane and you can pass back and forth. You have the opportunity of a lifetime, to turn this to your advantage and delight.

Forget the humans dissecting and diagnosing. They can't fix it, and if you're smart, you won't even let them try. It's way more fun to dance with your demons than to treat them like intruders and be an inhospitable hostess, so to speak.

That's my advice, for what it's worth. I'm schizoaffective, DID, demon possessed, unmedicated, and STILL fully functional -- I hold down a job where I am respected and paid well and I have a wonderful fiance who adores the ground I walk on. I have more fun than anyone because everywhere I go, my psychosis/gnosis entertains me, burns me, delights me, makes me unique among the children of men, and even the torture is delicious (the shapes of hell shall turn again to loveliness).

Of course if you're REALLY that unhappy with your glorious, unique self, by all means, fetch a shrink and gobble some pills and try to make it all go away. But I've been there done that and personally, for me, it was just trading in one hell for another (worse) one. So make your hell your heaven. Better the devil you know than the devil you don't!

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Sarah116 said:
Yes! I am feeling so much better I think it was a Psychotics episode or something.

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Glad you're feeling better.
Just remember, it waits.

It always waits ...

Thank you so much! That was truly caring of you to take time to post and helpful to me! It can be really weird sometimes and terrifying. I really do appreciate it!
Thanks!,
Sarah

I have sorta a problem here people. I was supposed to see my shrink on August 24th 2006 14:00 but days came and came and came and it did not happen. Now August 30th 2006 and i am wondering WHAT HAPPENED? Either it was rescheduled, forgotten, Shrink was busy or hopefully not it was CANCELED.
Last night I was scared out of my mind they crowded me again as real as can be I was so scared I wanted to cut. I really want medicine again I am thinking. But how, until I find out more it will remain a mystery What Did Happen? I am getting desperate! A parent takes me, I have tried Risperdal for this and lied then Seroquel did not work. Thanks so much. Yeah I am sorry this post is getting a bit long really sorry. But I never know maybe someone out there will have a Mastermind idea! Thanks so much! Appointment missing in action!

Okay i am doing pretty good now except got a bit suicidal today, I took some advice from a site and drew red pen on me when I thought of cutting, I am not getting much sleep, Aliens surround me I fear my thoughts being read or hurt and I often look up a lot to see if my thoughts were broadcasted or such. I hear my name and things often also. But am hanging in there.

I fight seeing my T so not sure what to tell you other than to follow your gut. Nope not mind or heart but gut. I want I/we want to cut and burn etc.... all the time plus more but I fight hard to not do so. I know the voices telling me such is either spiritual or part of me and have to remember that neither of those being self destructive is good. They want harm for what ever reason.
sister sue

Yeah thanks, I miss my Psychologist I have not seen her in awhile I wonder when I will, I like to write in notebooks to help me. I also am sometimes OCD like when it comes to the voices telling me what to do. Some of them say the most random things, some say they or others are going to kill me. Still wondering what to to and about medicine. Thanks and good luck to you!