[newtus]

i never understood this. i mean. til now.

i was called lazy in high school by my parents.
mostly my dad and into college.

i took 5 years of college for them to see i wasnt able to do school cause of what i beleive is cognitive stuff/issues. i took about 65 hours. which is roughly 21-22 classes in 5 years and i passed only 1. meaning only got earned 3 of those 65 hours. despite not only wearing my mind out but wearing it out through stress and thinking that i went into multiple episodes and almost got my jail time. stress was main issue. stress from school coupled with home stuff and then dealing with personal stuff within me like loneliness.

i remember trying to do work and in class with voices and all that other stuff. i exhausted everything. i mean i saw multiple school therapists. went to homework groups. met with professors. etc. on multiple campuses and went to two different schools.

ever since ive been out of college though idk if its being out of college or because of Sz or all the psychosis but my intelligence has gone down. i mean my ability to understand things/comprehend. my dad said i dont seem to understand very well anymore. i cant make speech well anymore.

[Atypical_Disaster]

I can relate. I got sick pretty early on, I was 13 or 14.. I didn't finish high school that year because I wound up in hospital and I was failing all of my classes, had to repeat 9th grade. It was horrible because usually I make straight A's but after i got sick... not so much. Eventually I did get through high school but I didn't do as well as I did before the sz symptoms set in. Cognitive difficulties are awful and it makes me feel really stupid.

[newtus]

wow.
i rarely see people that are kinda like me.
cause i got sick early too. i had psych problems since 9 but 13 was like psychosis starting. i started hearing external name calling at 13 and started to think my parents were tricking me and going to a remote buildig and watching me in the downtown area during the day. i had no idea was was going on. i thought it was completely true. i tried to kill myself at 13 and got sent to hospital. dxd with depression with psychosis. i also saw thing sometimes. it got worse at 17 though. i started skipping school cause of aocial phobia. i literally became so depressed i dropped out of life. had to goto a alternative school to make sure i passed. only went there cause i needed to pass. went there for 2-3 weeks. my grades slipped starting at 13.

[Atypical_Disaster]

Wow I can really relate... like wow, just yeah. I've always had some issues but my psychosis started up when I was 13 or so, hospitalized at 14(I think, don't remember too well) and dx'd with the same... depression with psychosis(which was... completely wrong...) After I attempted suicide when I was 15 I was dx'd with schizophrenia but since then I've had lots of issues with my dx... doctors don't know what they're doing(bipolar, schizoaffective, blah blah blah). Things got significantly worse for me around the same time as it did for you, I was 17/18 and things just got bad. I stopped engaging in life at all, and that's been pretty constant since then though I've had some periods of doing a bit better. Just yeah... wow... it's rare that I meet someone I can relate to like this.

[faerie_moon_x]

You can tack my mania and depression through junior high and high school all based on my school performance. It was pretty obvious. And, you know, that whole "causes problems with school/work" was all me. In college I was manic more often, I think. I remember thinking my depression was cured. But, I was also having that weird delusion during that time, and getting As in school constantly. But, at the same time.... I went to community college for 4 years and didn't earn a degree.... I had no basis of logic for what I was doing. Then I dropped out because it seemed logical.

My cognitive issues started a few years ago. I would say 5-6 years ago now, right around the time I was starting working but before I was diagnosed with bipolar. But, I've always had disorganization issues. You should have seen my room as a kid. It looked like a toy bomb exploded. I could just never figure out how to put things in order around me. I've always had the cluttered mind, it's just now it has become so cluttered I am losing things in the mess....